days before exam..
Its now 1.28am tuesday.. tmr i have an early morning 8am class.. yet, i'm still wandering in net.. "insect trapped on d spider web".. haih... year 2009 going to end soon.. every year end ll be a sentimental one..
wat i did in 2009??? its jus NOTHING.. i did alot alot alot of wrong things.. i must apologise for my mistake, which have made all of us suffer.. sorry~ everything not happy, dun keep inside your heart forever, leave some space for ur new life..
exam coming soon.. it starts on 16th of January 2010, ends on 25th of January.. after dat, i'll be sent to internship at KL, Horwath.. duno should i be happy or worry? izt a good chance for me? i reli dun think i suits their company so much.. my results in adv dip sux.. =( even stupid is better den me alot alot alot~ felt embarrassing!!!
swore to work hard for the coming exam.. n yet.. until tis week 13, i did nth.. jus 4 subjects, i think i cant even manage either one perfectly.. DAMN!!!! i hate myself for being lazy.. no more ohm to move on.. no more ppl to chase me go study.. no more~ i have to work on all by myself.. haiz... =(
depressed~
how to study? how to work?? help me pls...
i hate my lauzy english.. languages are getting poorer for me.. sux.. wat to do???!!
2009年12月3日 星期四
Ugly Things!
"Love Power" rely on the party who cares less.. [ The Ugly Truth ]
i found it can be used in many situation and object..
everything i care is against me now!!! Darn!
what i want i would NEVER get it, what i do not want i'll always get it FIRST!
What i care the most i could NEVER protect it, what i do not care it will always be with me!
Great example,
My laptop - i clean it everyday, cover it nicely, use it gently.. [ended up spoiling soon]
My SE w850i - i do not allow people to use it harshly, not even a bit harder.. [ended up in the process to phone repair shop]
My SE c902 - always cover it after used, pull the lense up softly when wanna on d cam.. [ended up scratches on the screen, dropped to the floor, side half damaged]
My car - although i did not always clean his outfit, but i still love him~ [ended up scratches here and there]
everything belongs to me is really against me.. hate it! should not protect it so well isnt? should jus left it born and live by itself right? ARGH~~ HATE it soooo much!!!!
Human.. will it also be the same???
i found it can be used in many situation and object..
everything i care is against me now!!! Darn!
what i want i would NEVER get it, what i do not want i'll always get it FIRST!
What i care the most i could NEVER protect it, what i do not care it will always be with me!
Great example,
My laptop - i clean it everyday, cover it nicely, use it gently.. [ended up spoiling soon]
My SE w850i - i do not allow people to use it harshly, not even a bit harder.. [ended up in the process to phone repair shop]
My SE c902 - always cover it after used, pull the lense up softly when wanna on d cam.. [ended up scratches on the screen, dropped to the floor, side half damaged]
My car - although i did not always clean his outfit, but i still love him~ [ended up scratches here and there]
everything belongs to me is really against me.. hate it! should not protect it so well isnt? should jus left it born and live by itself right? ARGH~~ HATE it soooo much!!!!
Human.. will it also be the same???
2009年11月18日 星期三
Mixture of mood
Ytd afternoon, went to a restaurant wit comic.. to discuss assignment.. it is located at somewhere around genting klang.. once i enter tis restaurant, super silent lik library.. how to discuss assignment in such a situation??! den, me n chan hoe decided to go down to a mamak, n have my cup of hot milo to cure my gastric.. after around 15mins, den oni v got back to dat restaurant. once v sit down, a gal came to us, n asked us to order sth to drink or eat.. v do not wan to order any as d food there reli expensive and lauzy!!
the gal said,
{if u wanna sit here n read, den u MUST atleast order sth above RM4, we have hot and cold drinks here. Which would u wan?}
[Den wat if v din read the comic here? can v dun order sth as i'm not feeling well]
{But, i saw u walk in and out. If u r not reading, but u still enjoyed the air-condition here. So pls order sth.} *there's extremely hot!*
[Den 1 hot milo, how much?]
{RM6 for hot milo}
Damn!!! the taste of the milo lik plain water, jus d colouring of milo exists!!!
At night,
i had my class until 7.30pm. Dated piggy bi go steamboat. No parking after few rounds. Finally parked my car n he ask me go up. I tot he doing wat serious things, who noe?! Watching pps, "Star War".. Zzz still ask me sit down n watch wit him.. my stomach was grumbling.. hungry~ luckily, he 'sik zou'.. stopped half way..
Headed to 'Hometown Steamboat'~~
1st time steamboat wit him.. n 1st time hav steamboat wit only 2pax (for him).. hmm~ good 1st time, cos i full til wanna vomit!! and my weight hav dramatically increased! haih~
Some other update on my small lil family~
There are 4 more members joined.. Thanks to bi ^^ wakakakaka.. after seeing them, wat unhappy incident ll jus fade off.. muakss
2009年11月14日 星期六
Today~
How should i start? How should it ends? Never expect to see its end.. never imagine of seeing it.. i saw it today~ w/out any preparation.. i was worried.. i was scared.. i was confused.. i was alone~ i'm very angry of myself.. i'm so serious on it.. but how come it jus cant go right when i'm seriously on sth? i doubt~ doubt every single thing in this world at d seconds.. i hate everything which make me walk on this.. i blame myself.. not anyone~ mind was full of shit!! [ Thats how i feel at that '2nd time' ]
after all, i'm still feeling it.. trying to figure out a way where v could live peacefully~ i'm scare to have d 3rd time.. pls dun tell me for 3rd time~ i think, v have our heart-to-heart talk today, n i reli hope u can understand me more from today onwards.. i too love peace.. hope this wont offend u.. ^^
my most 'expensive' dinner~
Da dang~ bought myself a mini mario.. love it.. gonna go for luigi, yogi & evil mushroom soon.. muacks!
Malefactor for today~ XD
after all, i'm still feeling it.. trying to figure out a way where v could live peacefully~ i'm scare to have d 3rd time.. pls dun tell me for 3rd time~ i think, v have our heart-to-heart talk today, n i reli hope u can understand me more from today onwards.. i too love peace.. hope this wont offend u.. ^^
my most 'expensive' dinner~
Besides, other than above incidence, i'm still quite excited & happy on sth..
2009年11月4日 星期三
Love U Galss so much!!
Today isnt a good day for me.. End up alot of things today~
Did something which really hurts him.. I see tears and anger in his eyes.. i'm scared~
At night, was alone at home.. long time never enjoy lonely life at home~ it is peaceful.. atleast my HOME is far away from the noises from city~ far away from quarrelsss..
Surf net is my only entertainment in my peaceful house~ my "ji mui", heng dai or what so ever -- ah woo, find me thru msn.. he knew i bad mood due to the arguement, suggested to buy me ice kacang!! yeah yeah~ miss ice kacang w/out red bean so so so muchie!!!
da dang!! kepong's ice kacang~
yum yum~ i think i din eat ice kacang for... almost a year or more?? thank you so much le ah woo~~ MUAAAH!
I remember someone told me that we could hardly get any sincere fren from college life.. but, i'm lucky, bcos i got whole group of besties!!! thanks for making me not ALONE~ i LOVE u guys.. "Ji Mui" Roxxx
2009年10月10日 星期六
Silly
Already get used to this kind of lifestyle. Even weekends also I'll be at home be good girl! yeah~! "Good Gal" finally can be used on me! ^^
Although its just d 1st week of schooling, but i can already smell the stress and pressure.. =( our lecturer this semester all super dumper Hyper-Active.. they don't just give lecture, they walk here and there, touch this and that, if you did pay attention in class, you will become dizzy. @.@ Zzz non-stop moving.. ( i felt dizzy too cause i did pay attention in class v^.^v )
Next is the matter of internship, although i haven choose and haven even prepare my resume, i felt so nervous now.. wakakaka.. hyper-tension =.=" but i believe, working will be definitely much more better den studying! AGREE!! Yeah~
Really felt so bored! Darn boring! Til i wrote out so many non-sense here.. anyone would like to date me out??? I'm not suitable to be Good Gal.. not qualified..
Although its just d 1st week of schooling, but i can already smell the stress and pressure.. =( our lecturer this semester all super dumper Hyper-Active.. they don't just give lecture, they walk here and there, touch this and that, if you did pay attention in class, you will become dizzy. @.@ Zzz non-stop moving.. ( i felt dizzy too cause i did pay attention in class v^.^v )
Next is the matter of internship, although i haven choose and haven even prepare my resume, i felt so nervous now.. wakakaka.. hyper-tension =.=" but i believe, working will be definitely much more better den studying! AGREE!! Yeah~
Really felt so bored! Darn boring! Til i wrote out so many non-sense here.. anyone would like to date me out??? I'm not suitable to be Good Gal.. not qualified..
2009年10月8日 星期四
两种老公 两种人生
A:她：“老公。帮我接杯水呗。”
他：“石头剪子布。谁输了谁去。”
她：“算了。我自己去吧。”
B:他们坐在一起看韩剧。她起身。他问“干吗去？”
她：“去接杯水。”
他：“你坐这看吧。我去给你接。”
女人多可怜。她对男人唯一的要求就是“疼她”。你可以什么都没有。只要你疼她。她就有足够的勇气把自己的下半辈子交给你。
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A:他晚上下班。给她打电话“宝贝儿。我晚上和朋友出去吃饭。”
她：“你不是答应我陪我逛街的吗？”
他：“改天吧！”
她默默地流泪。为什么每次都是这样？
B:他下班的时候打电话给她:“亲爱的。别人给我一张奥运会的票。巴西队啊！一会儿我去
看球了啊。”
她：“哦。这样啊。好吧。”
他：“怎么不高兴了？”
她：“你忘了。上周说好今天我朋友和她男朋友请我俩吃饭啊。”
他：“哎呀。对不起亲爱的。我忘记了。那我把票给别人吧。我陪你去吃饭。”
她：“不要了。吃饭可以改天。或者你先去看。我们等你。”
他：“那不行。答应你的事情必须得做到。再说你自己跟他俩在一起像电灯泡似的。你肯定不舒服啊”
她：“没事……”
没等她说完。他很强势的告诉她“好了。听我的。你收拾一下。我一会儿去接你。”
其实女人不是不懂事。只是。她需要碰上一个懂事的男人。其实。情侣之间。是可以互相的。
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A:他：“我晚上出去吃饭了啊。”
她：“几点回家？”
他：“九点之前肯定回家。”
九点半，她：“你怎么还不回来啊？”
他：“十点。肯定回家。”
十一点。十二点。一点。两点……
后来。她不再打电话催他。因为她知道。对于不守承诺的男人。一切“肯定”都是“未必”。
B:他：“我晚上出去吃饭。九点之前肯定结束。然后我俩去看电影。”
她：“你能那么快就结束吗？”
他：“放心吧。我答应你了就一定能！”
快到九点的时候。他：“收拾一下吧。我马上就到你家了”
信任。是在一件一件小事中建立起来的。
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A:她生理期。身体不舒服。顶着疼痛洗衣服。收拾屋子。
他坐在电脑前面玩网络游戏。
她干完活。躺在床上。长出了一口气。
他看了她一眼：“宝贝儿。辛苦了！”然后转过头。继续玩他的游戏。
B:她生理期。很难受。起身准备洗衣服。
他拽住她：“你去床上躺着。我来！”
她：“你会做家务吗？你自己洗过衣服吗？”
他：“不会做可以学着做啊。以后你身体不舒服的时候。我当然得独挡一面！”
女人需要的不只是甜言蜜语。哄她几句。她也许会给你一个微笑。但是实实在在的呵护。她会对你一辈子的感恩。并且会回报给你一个温暖的家。
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A:她给他拿了一包榛子。然后她去洗衣服。
回来的时候。榛子已经被他吃得所剩无几。
B:她拿给他一包榛子。然后自己去收拾屋子。
回来的时候。她看见电脑前面放了一堆剥好的榛子仁。
女人很感性。她炫耀你对她的体贴。就好像炫耀克拉钻一样。这么廉价的买卖。用一点心思就能收获无比的财富。
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A:他说：“你是最好的。”
她问：“我哪好？”
他：“学历高。能力强。长得漂亮。对我又这么好。”
她笑了。
B:他：“你是我所遇到最好的女孩儿。”
她：“我哪好？”
他：“你对身边的每个人都很友善。很无私。对人对生活总是很感恩。一个人有一颗善良的心。会让周围的人感觉到温暖。你是我见过最善良的女孩儿。伤害你的人都应该下地 狱！”
她哭了。
一个人。是因为你对他好。所以觉得你好。
一个人。是因为懂得你的好。所以想要对你好。
幸福的恋人。首先应该是一对彼此欣赏的知己
他：“石头剪子布。谁输了谁去。”
她：“算了。我自己去吧。”
B:他们坐在一起看韩剧。她起身。他问“干吗去？”
她：“去接杯水。”
他：“你坐这看吧。我去给你接。”
女人多可怜。她对男人唯一的要求就是“疼她”。你可以什么都没有。只要你疼她。她就有足够的勇气把自己的下半辈子交给你。
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A:他晚上下班。给她打电话“宝贝儿。我晚上和朋友出去吃饭。”
她：“你不是答应我陪我逛街的吗？”
他：“改天吧！”
她默默地流泪。为什么每次都是这样？
B:他下班的时候打电话给她:“亲爱的。别人给我一张奥运会的票。巴西队啊！一会儿我去
看球了啊。”
她：“哦。这样啊。好吧。”
他：“怎么不高兴了？”
她：“你忘了。上周说好今天我朋友和她男朋友请我俩吃饭啊。”
他：“哎呀。对不起亲爱的。我忘记了。那我把票给别人吧。我陪你去吃饭。”
她：“不要了。吃饭可以改天。或者你先去看。我们等你。”
他：“那不行。答应你的事情必须得做到。再说你自己跟他俩在一起像电灯泡似的。你肯定不舒服啊”
她：“没事……”
没等她说完。他很强势的告诉她“好了。听我的。你收拾一下。我一会儿去接你。”
其实女人不是不懂事。只是。她需要碰上一个懂事的男人。其实。情侣之间。是可以互相的。
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
A:他：“我晚上出去吃饭了啊。”
她：“几点回家？”
他：“九点之前肯定回家。”
九点半，她：“你怎么还不回来啊？”
他：“十点。肯定回家。”
十一点。十二点。一点。两点……
后来。她不再打电话催他。因为她知道。对于不守承诺的男人。一切“肯定”都是“未必”。
B:他：“我晚上出去吃饭。九点之前肯定结束。然后我俩去看电影。”
她：“你能那么快就结束吗？”
他：“放心吧。我答应你了就一定能！”
快到九点的时候。他：“收拾一下吧。我马上就到你家了”
信任。是在一件一件小事中建立起来的。
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A:她生理期。身体不舒服。顶着疼痛洗衣服。收拾屋子。
他坐在电脑前面玩网络游戏。
她干完活。躺在床上。长出了一口气。
他看了她一眼：“宝贝儿。辛苦了！”然后转过头。继续玩他的游戏。
B:她生理期。很难受。起身准备洗衣服。
他拽住她：“你去床上躺着。我来！”
她：“你会做家务吗？你自己洗过衣服吗？”
他：“不会做可以学着做啊。以后你身体不舒服的时候。我当然得独挡一面！”
女人需要的不只是甜言蜜语。哄她几句。她也许会给你一个微笑。但是实实在在的呵护。她会对你一辈子的感恩。并且会回报给你一个温暖的家。
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
A:她给他拿了一包榛子。然后她去洗衣服。
回来的时候。榛子已经被他吃得所剩无几。
B:她拿给他一包榛子。然后自己去收拾屋子。
回来的时候。她看见电脑前面放了一堆剥好的榛子仁。
女人很感性。她炫耀你对她的体贴。就好像炫耀克拉钻一样。这么廉价的买卖。用一点心思就能收获无比的财富。
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
A:他说：“你是最好的。”
她问：“我哪好？”
他：“学历高。能力强。长得漂亮。对我又这么好。”
她笑了。
B:他：“你是我所遇到最好的女孩儿。”
她：“我哪好？”
他：“你对身边的每个人都很友善。很无私。对人对生活总是很感恩。一个人有一颗善良的心。会让周围的人感觉到温暖。你是我见过最善良的女孩儿。伤害你的人都应该下地 狱！”
她哭了。
一个人。是因为你对他好。所以觉得你好。
一个人。是因为懂得你的好。所以想要对你好。
幸福的恋人。首先应该是一对彼此欣赏的知己
2009年10月6日 星期二
Piece of Thinking
hoa~!!!
1st week usually very free~ whole day at home, car broke down, cant go anywhere... SIEN!
took out an old video made by someone.. inside, contains of my memories with fren.. went to Penang, Kedah, Cameron, Ipoh, Pangkor.. Miss it so so so much.. just dat now, sth had broke us apart.. i think its hard to have a trip where v can all play a fool.. hmm.. so darn miss it er!!!! anyone wanna organize any trip? i would vry much appreciate.. ^^
1st week of skul, i've decided another thing.. i must pay 100% concentration and effort on my studies.. which i did not do it last sem.. i did not put effort on studying, i admit.. sth bothered me so much.. til i reli cant concentrate on my studies.. i'm quite sure dat i'll get a sux result in d coming friday.. Oh my God~ everytime think about my result, i'm gonna vomit blood n reli had a serious headache on it! Fuk~
1st week usually very free~ whole day at home, car broke down, cant go anywhere... SIEN!
took out an old video made by someone.. inside, contains of my memories with fren.. went to Penang, Kedah, Cameron, Ipoh, Pangkor.. Miss it so so so much.. just dat now, sth had broke us apart.. i think its hard to have a trip where v can all play a fool.. hmm.. so darn miss it er!!!! anyone wanna organize any trip? i would vry much appreciate.. ^^
1st week of skul, i've decided another thing.. i must pay 100% concentration and effort on my studies.. which i did not do it last sem.. i did not put effort on studying, i admit.. sth bothered me so much.. til i reli cant concentrate on my studies.. i'm quite sure dat i'll get a sux result in d coming friday.. Oh my God~ everytime think about my result, i'm gonna vomit blood n reli had a serious headache on it! Fuk~
2009年10月3日 星期六
Relaxed
21 hours more til holiday ends.. what the... so fast 2 weeks of holidays past.. phew~ disastrous~! hate it!!i don't wanna study~ boring~ everyday facing books and notes, school reopen means assignments and coursework coming up.. Finals result also coming out at 16 OCT.. WTH!! 1 subject certified, killed... haiz..
Today is a very special day... lantern-festival, moon cake festival, mid-autumn festival.. whatever ll do la...
went to a park.. played with candle.. whole concentration on d candle.. long time never touch n celebrate this festival, since i was still a child..
slanting candle made by me ^^
2 "Hello Kitty" lantern to chase away the mosquitoes.. ^^
a weird style of putting a candle.. created by someone smart =.=
finally not forgetting our main character, Mr. Moon.. XD *with my fingers*
its not a big celebration.. but it does pull me back to my childhood life.. saw a lot of children were playing candle n holding lantern in d playground, felt... OLD.. I'm now 20 years old.. 10 years back, I might have done d same thing too.. missed that time so darn much.. although today wasn't going on with the actual plan, this sudden plan make me felt relax too.. burned off our "hello kitty" lantern n go home...
(I Just Want My Life To Be As Simple As Today!)
A Simple Meal Can Keep Me Happy For Whole Day. A Simple Talk Can Keep Me Away From Problems. A Quiet Moment Can Keep Me Revising Of My Past Fault.
Life is all about simple for me.. i don't need any luxurious or pompous present.. i just need someone to talk to, i just need accompaniment! I hope i have a sister.. but i wouldn't got one.. so, I'm now seeking for someone, anyone..
Today is a very special day... lantern-festival, moon cake festival, mid-autumn festival.. whatever ll do la...
went to a park.. played with candle.. whole concentration on d candle.. long time never touch n celebrate this festival, since i was still a child..
slanting candle made by me ^^
2 "Hello Kitty" lantern to chase away the mosquitoes.. ^^
a weird style of putting a candle.. created by someone smart =.=
finally not forgetting our main character, Mr. Moon.. XD *with my fingers*
its not a big celebration.. but it does pull me back to my childhood life.. saw a lot of children were playing candle n holding lantern in d playground, felt... OLD.. I'm now 20 years old.. 10 years back, I might have done d same thing too.. missed that time so darn much.. although today wasn't going on with the actual plan, this sudden plan make me felt relax too.. burned off our "hello kitty" lantern n go home...
(I Just Want My Life To Be As Simple As Today!)
A Simple Meal Can Keep Me Happy For Whole Day. A Simple Talk Can Keep Me Away From Problems. A Quiet Moment Can Keep Me Revising Of My Past Fault.
Life is all about simple for me.. i don't need any luxurious or pompous present.. i just need someone to talk to, i just need accompaniment! I hope i have a sister.. but i wouldn't got one.. so, I'm now seeking for someone, anyone..
2009年9月20日 星期日
changing~
jus had a quarreling session.. i WAS not happy, n WAS sad..
but now.. out of nth, i realised sth..
if when u r not in good mood, everything inside ur brain ll be bad things oso, try not to listen or look at pessimistic things anymore, it will make u feel worse.. n cry for nth.. cry cant settle anything, jus a medium to vent ur problems, somehow, it make things got worse.. dats wat i alwiz experienced..
had a movie.. although its not really a nice movie, bt it does really cheer me up alot.. i dun think about those unhappy things anymore.. jus wan my life to be simple n happy.. somehow wished myself is still d small kid.. w/out stress w/out proper thinking.. wat kids noe is jus PLAY.. yu-hoo~ i jus trying to get back dat life.. take everything dat ll fall on me.. take everything God wants me to experienced.. i'll more den willing to accept all these.. no human are perfect, n no one borned with zero-mistake.. but if u urself dun make things complicated, dat problems wont be complicated.. oni humans make their life so difficult~
wanna to change myself.. think less, do more; speaks less, do more.. wahaha.. abit abnormal about my blog, as i jus wanna dumped all my sadness, my temper, all down to the drain!!!
but now.. out of nth, i realised sth..
if when u r not in good mood, everything inside ur brain ll be bad things oso, try not to listen or look at pessimistic things anymore, it will make u feel worse.. n cry for nth.. cry cant settle anything, jus a medium to vent ur problems, somehow, it make things got worse.. dats wat i alwiz experienced..
had a movie.. although its not really a nice movie, bt it does really cheer me up alot.. i dun think about those unhappy things anymore.. jus wan my life to be simple n happy.. somehow wished myself is still d small kid.. w/out stress w/out proper thinking.. wat kids noe is jus PLAY.. yu-hoo~ i jus trying to get back dat life.. take everything dat ll fall on me.. take everything God wants me to experienced.. i'll more den willing to accept all these.. no human are perfect, n no one borned with zero-mistake.. but if u urself dun make things complicated, dat problems wont be complicated.. oni humans make their life so difficult~
wanna to change myself.. think less, do more; speaks less, do more.. wahaha.. abit abnormal about my blog, as i jus wanna dumped all my sadness, my temper, all down to the drain!!!
2009年9月18日 星期五
Unsecure
a lil too sensitive?
a lil too naive?
a lil too pessimistic?
YA.. i guess i am..
i'm feeling so unsecured right now!! on everything i did n i gonna do..
everytime i found out sth bout u... especially sth dat for me - sensitive, i couldn't stop thinking..
i do not hope i did dat too.. i'm really controlling well for d past few months.. i think, i couldn't manage my feelings, my mood, my temper, n everything in my life..
Damn tired of living those life.. i'm longing to have some improvement.. everytime i hope, i wont get it.. HAHA.. God is really getting me wrong~ mayb its nt His planning, its jus bcos of my dumbness..
You would NEVER noe how unsecure n how fears cover my heart~ i'm worrying for every sec n min. u got a better choice, i do not have any~ YA, i'm weak, i'm noodle~ i dun wan to rely on ANYone ANYmore.. damn hesitate to do so~ never noe how much i need someone.. until i feel d loneliness myself.. i standing up alone.. not dependent on anyone.. i hav to learn even if i duno~
process of learning is tough is hard.. i'll overcome it.. dun worry.. no matter wat, i gonna grow up~
a lil too naive?
a lil too pessimistic?
YA.. i guess i am..
i'm feeling so unsecured right now!! on everything i did n i gonna do..
everytime i found out sth bout u... especially sth dat for me - sensitive, i couldn't stop thinking..
i do not hope i did dat too.. i'm really controlling well for d past few months.. i think, i couldn't manage my feelings, my mood, my temper, n everything in my life..
Damn tired of living those life.. i'm longing to have some improvement.. everytime i hope, i wont get it.. HAHA.. God is really getting me wrong~ mayb its nt His planning, its jus bcos of my dumbness..
You would NEVER noe how unsecure n how fears cover my heart~ i'm worrying for every sec n min. u got a better choice, i do not have any~ YA, i'm weak, i'm noodle~ i dun wan to rely on ANYone ANYmore.. damn hesitate to do so~ never noe how much i need someone.. until i feel d loneliness myself.. i standing up alone.. not dependent on anyone.. i hav to learn even if i duno~
process of learning is tough is hard.. i'll overcome it.. dun worry.. no matter wat, i gonna grow up~
2009年8月27日 星期四
lost in d life
i should be rushing to finish my syllabus now.. bt i duno where d feeling comes, which urges me to BLOG...
have been quite busy lately.. after finishing those lengthy and stressful assignment, i've to start studying.. boring skul life...
a lil nervous to sit for my ADV DIP 1st ever final exam.. cos, inside my huge brain, there's jus a tiny part which contains those academic materials (sad huh?) furthermore, i duno wats wrong with me tis very 1st sem of adv dip, i failed my paper.. 1st time in my life failed important paper... i dun lik tis 1st time, n i'll rmb it til i die.. i wont allow me to fail anymore, bt honestly inside my heart, there's actually a thorn, stop me from going and moving on.. i'm afraid of it.. no confidence over it.. i cant be brave to overcome it, no supports..
i wanted to find sth which can help me to stand up.. tough and straight.. i couldn't find any~
i felt alone.. everyday wake up not knowingly wat to do.. i'm jus following my planned schedule.. everyday travel to and from coll.. not knowing the purposes and aims..
i too felt lost...
YA!! i agree wit u.. i was d one where others will come for me to ask me on d subject.. but now, everything is jus turning UP-SIDE-DOWN.. i became the one who ask for others' help.. seek for help... i dun lik to be d weakest one.. i wanna to b d toughest..
i was once crying while i travel back from coll.. not knowing d reason for crying.. i jus can feel my heart is overloading wit problems.. i jus wanna to find a place to hide myself n cry out loud. The place which i could find - my room.. i spent most of my time in my room alone.. i felt comfortable when i'm alone.. do not need to pretend and could do watever things i lik.. dats wat call free...
tis sem i've my shopping session once a week.. every week must hav atleast sth in my bag.. duno d problem i'm facing, jus wanted to buy myself sth to cheer me up, bt NOT AT ALL.. I'M NOT HAPPY AT ALL...
where goes my HAPPINESS? where goes my FREEDOM?? where goes my COURAGE?? where goes my TOUGHNESS?? where goes CLARICE YAP SHIN YHEE??
have been quite busy lately.. after finishing those lengthy and stressful assignment, i've to start studying.. boring skul life...
a lil nervous to sit for my ADV DIP 1st ever final exam.. cos, inside my huge brain, there's jus a tiny part which contains those academic materials (sad huh?) furthermore, i duno wats wrong with me tis very 1st sem of adv dip, i failed my paper.. 1st time in my life failed important paper... i dun lik tis 1st time, n i'll rmb it til i die.. i wont allow me to fail anymore, bt honestly inside my heart, there's actually a thorn, stop me from going and moving on.. i'm afraid of it.. no confidence over it.. i cant be brave to overcome it, no supports..
i wanted to find sth which can help me to stand up.. tough and straight.. i couldn't find any~
i felt alone.. everyday wake up not knowingly wat to do.. i'm jus following my planned schedule.. everyday travel to and from coll.. not knowing the purposes and aims..
i too felt lost...
YA!! i agree wit u.. i was d one where others will come for me to ask me on d subject.. but now, everything is jus turning UP-SIDE-DOWN.. i became the one who ask for others' help.. seek for help... i dun lik to be d weakest one.. i wanna to b d toughest..
i was once crying while i travel back from coll.. not knowing d reason for crying.. i jus can feel my heart is overloading wit problems.. i jus wanna to find a place to hide myself n cry out loud. The place which i could find - my room.. i spent most of my time in my room alone.. i felt comfortable when i'm alone.. do not need to pretend and could do watever things i lik.. dats wat call free...
tis sem i've my shopping session once a week.. every week must hav atleast sth in my bag.. duno d problem i'm facing, jus wanted to buy myself sth to cheer me up, bt NOT AT ALL.. I'M NOT HAPPY AT ALL...
where goes my HAPPINESS? where goes my FREEDOM?? where goes my COURAGE?? where goes my TOUGHNESS?? where goes CLARICE YAP SHIN YHEE??
2009年8月21日 星期五
sleepy blog
should i feel happy in tis 2 months? my brain told me i should be... and must be...
i'm not sure.. not sure bout u, me, and us..
i hate d suspecting and doubting feelings which i got from u and my heart..
i got alot of question marks inside my brain n heart.. cos..
i reli duno wat i wan.. i hope i could concentrate on things dat i've started.. bt, things were nv be so great to allow u to do dat.. haiz...
i'm not sure.. not sure bout u, me, and us..
i hate d suspecting and doubting feelings which i got from u and my heart..
i got alot of question marks inside my brain n heart.. cos..
i reli duno wat i wan.. i hope i could concentrate on things dat i've started.. bt, things were nv be so great to allow u to do dat.. haiz...
2009年8月14日 星期五
14/08/2009
where should i start my story??
lets start with the happy part.. today went out wit my super super frens..
vry vry happy at first... long time never talk for the whole day, laugh for the whole day..
college's life now is too dull for me.. no more laugher.. =(
today din planned to buy anything, jus go out accompany wei buy present for her RU.. den accidentally bought myself sth.. after buying, realised money i take out jus now was all gone.. omg.. dats d money which i planned to use for the whole week including petrol.. sad-nya.. y no one stop me when i buy things??? reli fainted...
after tired of walking, v got to stop at a shop which sells alot of soft toys.. stayed there for a vry long time.. bought sth for ourselves.
cow's key chains r mine n a tan.. d other 2 is for another 2 soh poh.. quite nice a d cow.. lik it.. haha..
AT NIGHT
all of us r reli exhausted.. tired.. sleepy+hungry.. fetch yuan back... den go kepong eat..
unfortunately, sth bad happened.. haiz.. today whole day duno y jus scare when driving.. or sitting cars.. dun lik d feeling.. tan got accident.. sienz liao lo.. haven eat den jiu sth lidat happened..where got mood o?? i'm reli sorry cos... dumped u all bhind... haiz.. bt, dat time reli alot cars.. cant stop.. reli guilty.. bt luckily, nt vry serious.. lidat oso fong sum abit.. now is reli exhausted.. tired.. hungry.. haiz... =(
lets start with the happy part.. today went out wit my super super frens..
vry vry happy at first... long time never talk for the whole day, laugh for the whole day..
college's life now is too dull for me.. no more laugher.. =(
today din planned to buy anything, jus go out accompany wei buy present for her RU.. den accidentally bought myself sth.. after buying, realised money i take out jus now was all gone.. omg.. dats d money which i planned to use for the whole week including petrol.. sad-nya.. y no one stop me when i buy things??? reli fainted...
after tired of walking, v got to stop at a shop which sells alot of soft toys.. stayed there for a vry long time.. bought sth for ourselves.
cow's key chains r mine n a tan.. d other 2 is for another 2 soh poh.. quite nice a d cow.. lik it.. haha..
AT NIGHT
all of us r reli exhausted.. tired.. sleepy+hungry.. fetch yuan back... den go kepong eat..
unfortunately, sth bad happened.. haiz.. today whole day duno y jus scare when driving.. or sitting cars.. dun lik d feeling.. tan got accident.. sienz liao lo.. haven eat den jiu sth lidat happened..where got mood o?? i'm reli sorry cos... dumped u all bhind... haiz.. bt, dat time reli alot cars.. cant stop.. reli guilty.. bt luckily, nt vry serious.. lidat oso fong sum abit.. now is reli exhausted.. tired.. hungry.. haiz... =(
2009年8月2日 星期日
confession
its tiring~ tiring to handle all my assignments, course works, and love...
i duno how can i relax n calm myself down..
its has been a vry tough month for me..
wonder if things would nv go wrong..
wonder if i'm still in my past..
wonder if i can appreciate the time i had..
wondering all the time~
had a lil crying session~
no one noe wats actually in my mind..
no one noe wat i reli wanted for my life..
no one noe d reasons i cried for..
I DUN UNDERSTAND TOO..
MENS are borned to be diffrnt..
diffrnt size, face, character, personality..
yet, i still cant find my PERFECT one.. a perfect person who can curb wit me..
i wonder, is there any perfect one around the other side of the world? do these person reli exist?
in the diffrnt part of the world, which is in here, i found alot.. alot ppl who i once THOUGHT they r d person, bt i once failed..
things would nv go right..
we r nt together doesnt mean d end of the world..
we r nt together is bcos God found that v r more suitable to be fren, forever fren..
some, break apart and together again.. tot that v can reli curb wit each other, bt actually, its another lie..
tried to change alot for ppl.. saw ppl change alot for me..
wondering~ if v could oni be fren from the beginning, v would nv had a bad ending~ v can alwiz be fren.. fren to help each other..
THANKS to all of u who perfect my life, who helped me to walk thru few years or months..
i duno how can i relax n calm myself down..
its has been a vry tough month for me..
wonder if things would nv go wrong..
wonder if i'm still in my past..
wonder if i can appreciate the time i had..
wondering all the time~
had a lil crying session~
no one noe wats actually in my mind..
no one noe wat i reli wanted for my life..
no one noe d reasons i cried for..
I DUN UNDERSTAND TOO..
MENS are borned to be diffrnt..
diffrnt size, face, character, personality..
yet, i still cant find my PERFECT one.. a perfect person who can curb wit me..
i wonder, is there any perfect one around the other side of the world? do these person reli exist?
in the diffrnt part of the world, which is in here, i found alot.. alot ppl who i once THOUGHT they r d person, bt i once failed..
things would nv go right..
we r nt together doesnt mean d end of the world..
we r nt together is bcos God found that v r more suitable to be fren, forever fren..
some, break apart and together again.. tot that v can reli curb wit each other, bt actually, its another lie..
tried to change alot for ppl.. saw ppl change alot for me..
wondering~ if v could oni be fren from the beginning, v would nv had a bad ending~ v can alwiz be fren.. fren to help each other..
THANKS to all of u who perfect my life, who helped me to walk thru few years or months..
2009年7月31日 星期五
2009年7月23日 星期四
2009年7月21日 星期二
2009年7月5日 星期日
family~
jus finished dying hair for mum.. since last time helped her dye, she nw everytime oso nid me.. XD seldom so guai lui, oni noe how to gik parents.. felt so sorry to them..
saw mum's hair, all from black turning to white, think alot..
parents' r getting older now, left nt much time to b wit them, yet i alwiz go out, 1 week oso nv eat wit them once.. i tis sui lui, reli vry bad...
alwiz think:
wat if, they r no longer here?
wat if, they do not love us anymore?
wat if, they dun bother n care for us anymore?
for me, i'll b sad.. bt duno for others how..
now, sometimes, feel dat they vry ma fan, vry annoying, once they scold me vry hope they dun k of me anymore, jus dun bother wat i do, jus let me hav my freedom..
but somehow, they r jus too care for us...
jus now daddy scolded me for buying those rubbish snacks.. scolded vry angryly.. i jus dun understand, y he reacted so over... hmmm, reli vry angry of him at dat time.. bt after cooling down, he's jus caring for me... i shouldnt fight back.... regreted
DADDY MUMMY!!! I LOVE YOU!!!
saw mum's hair, all from black turning to white, think alot..
parents' r getting older now, left nt much time to b wit them, yet i alwiz go out, 1 week oso nv eat wit them once.. i tis sui lui, reli vry bad...
alwiz think:
wat if, they r no longer here?
wat if, they do not love us anymore?
wat if, they dun bother n care for us anymore?
for me, i'll b sad.. bt duno for others how..
now, sometimes, feel dat they vry ma fan, vry annoying, once they scold me vry hope they dun k of me anymore, jus dun bother wat i do, jus let me hav my freedom..
but somehow, they r jus too care for us...
jus now daddy scolded me for buying those rubbish snacks.. scolded vry angryly.. i jus dun understand, y he reacted so over... hmmm, reli vry angry of him at dat time.. bt after cooling down, he's jus caring for me... i shouldnt fight back.... regreted
DADDY MUMMY!!! I LOVE YOU!!!
2009年7月4日 星期六
Yong Tau Foo
early in the morning wake up by bao bei.. wanna to sleep awhile more but nan tak he call me, so need to wake myself up oso... decided to wake mummy up to bring me for sinseh...
i woke up at 1030.. wait til 1 oni go out....
i was late to dear... he kept complain wanna hungry sei jor.... aiyo, bt nt i wan de ma... family's habit... too mo~ haha ^^
after dat, v went to ampang to hav his breakfast.. AMPANG YONG TAU FOO!!! 1st reached there tot din open, no ppl de.. felt so horrible.. lolx.. bt later on oni ppl coming in...
was quite full, cos had my bfast wit parents, bt bcos dun wanna see him eat alone, i joined.. omg, super FULL... bluek~
b4 goin back to his hse, he asked me sth bout him... n i dun wanna answer.. i dun wanna tell him anything bout him.. i dun wanna think dat last time.. i duno, i gt no confidence... i scare d more i think back, i'll miss him... dats y dear, i ask u dun mention bout him anymore.. dun go see anything of him.... for now, i'm jus for u... sorry to annoyed u.... i jus wanna hav a bright future wit u.. i did not lie to u... everything i said was true... whether to blif or nt, u decide la k?
had a memorable day in dat hse~ reli very MEMORABLE~ swt = = since its so memorable, i think its better to keep inside my heart... n bao bei, dun forget wat u've promised me.... never ever break ur promise k? wakakakakaka ^^
at nite~
dinner time... duno where to eat... reli think liao alot of places oso cant get 1 ideal place... finally. he came out wit an idea, IPOH ROAD YONG TAU FOO.. omg, yong tau foo again leh.. i was thinking, nid to so gila to eat yong tau foo anot o? whole day yong tau foo leh... bt, as he likes la.. i oso ok de... oso eat oni ma... nw think back, oso wanna vomit... tired of eating YONG TAU FOO~
TO Bao Bei,
reli noe u nt long ago.. bt i can feel dat u r d vry responsible person.. i noe u tried to do everything nice n perfect for urself n for everyone... i love it when seeing u wit ur serious face.. i lik guy to be serious.. lolz.. bt most of the time, u look lik my gf more den my bf, u r jus lik a small kid in front of me n everyone, so, actually, i felt a lil bit unsecure.. u r unpredictable.. i duno wat r u goin to do next.. therefore, for now... i'll try up my best jus to love u dear~ i love u!
i woke up at 1030.. wait til 1 oni go out....
i was late to dear... he kept complain wanna hungry sei jor.... aiyo, bt nt i wan de ma... family's habit... too mo~ haha ^^
after dat, v went to ampang to hav his breakfast.. AMPANG YONG TAU FOO!!! 1st reached there tot din open, no ppl de.. felt so horrible.. lolx.. bt later on oni ppl coming in...
was quite full, cos had my bfast wit parents, bt bcos dun wanna see him eat alone, i joined.. omg, super FULL... bluek~
b4 goin back to his hse, he asked me sth bout him... n i dun wanna answer.. i dun wanna tell him anything bout him.. i dun wanna think dat last time.. i duno, i gt no confidence... i scare d more i think back, i'll miss him... dats y dear, i ask u dun mention bout him anymore.. dun go see anything of him.... for now, i'm jus for u... sorry to annoyed u.... i jus wanna hav a bright future wit u.. i did not lie to u... everything i said was true... whether to blif or nt, u decide la k?
had a memorable day in dat hse~ reli very MEMORABLE~ swt = = since its so memorable, i think its better to keep inside my heart... n bao bei, dun forget wat u've promised me.... never ever break ur promise k? wakakakakaka ^^
at nite~
dinner time... duno where to eat... reli think liao alot of places oso cant get 1 ideal place... finally. he came out wit an idea, IPOH ROAD YONG TAU FOO.. omg, yong tau foo again leh.. i was thinking, nid to so gila to eat yong tau foo anot o? whole day yong tau foo leh... bt, as he likes la.. i oso ok de... oso eat oni ma... nw think back, oso wanna vomit... tired of eating YONG TAU FOO~
TO Bao Bei,
reli noe u nt long ago.. bt i can feel dat u r d vry responsible person.. i noe u tried to do everything nice n perfect for urself n for everyone... i love it when seeing u wit ur serious face.. i lik guy to be serious.. lolz.. bt most of the time, u look lik my gf more den my bf, u r jus lik a small kid in front of me n everyone, so, actually, i felt a lil bit unsecure.. u r unpredictable.. i duno wat r u goin to do next.. therefore, for now... i'll try up my best jus to love u dear~ i love u!
2009年7月3日 星期五
2009年7月2日 星期四
dull
wat a good day...
woke up at 7 in d morning, bt my class start at 10. still gt plenty of time for me...
date dear for breakfast, tot wanna let him sleep a lil bit more, so purposely do everything SLOWLY..
finished at 830, den go out, go hav my breakfast lu~ but, once i turn into d high way which cant u-turn, he called me up, said he gt exam at 9, he had to go to skul NOW~ i was lik.. wt...f.....
i purposely wake up for him leh..... bt luckily, i found zi wei to acc me!
da dang~!!!! ZI WEI... my 救命恩人！！
n ordered a breakfast set wit bread n omega eggsss..
super hungry... bt i whole day vry energetic.. mayb is bcos of d OMEGA eggs... wish to hav this kind of bfast everyday.. bt i'm lazy...
at nite..
had dinner wit dear, after dat, rushing to my gathering... den stupid him bring me dau fa yun, duno where i went oso... stupid la.... follow main road better...
after safely come out from d maze, i went to 5bianz gathering.. as usual, i din talk much..sitting there, facing ppl dat i.... dun wanna face.. sien de lo.... wait for sis to come... mana tau, she came after 2 hrs.. reli zd.. wait her wait dou wanna fall asleep... =.="
den... nth much happen.. jus dun wanna talk bout anyone... n hope u reli ll b ok... as a fren, dun wanna to see u act happy in front of me... jus show out real YOU ok?
=THE END=
2009年7月1日 星期三
男女之间不能有纯友谊？
jus wanna ask... why guy n gal cant oni be fren? a pure frenship..
whenever guys n gals get closer, sure is bcos of LOVE btween couple, bt nt love btween frens... why huh???
its so complicated.... bt i wanna tell someone!!! dun ever do sth dat hurt ur frens! u noe it! nt to say control u or threaten u, jus hope nth ll goes wrong btween frens.... ok?!... reli sux
whenever guys n gals get closer, sure is bcos of LOVE btween couple, bt nt love btween frens... why huh???
its so complicated.... bt i wanna tell someone!!! dun ever do sth dat hurt ur frens! u noe it! nt to say control u or threaten u, jus hope nth ll goes wrong btween frens.... ok?!... reli sux
2009年6月27日 星期六
27/06/2009
completed one week wit him.. phew~ wat a tough week?? Quarrel on d fifth day.. Zzz
duno how to describe the feeling.. we went back to MIDVALLEY AGAIN for our movie "Transformer 2". Tis movie quite nice actually, bt v sat in d 3rd row, of cos.... DIZZY @@ n, sometimes, reli wan to fall asleep, cos its too close to watch.. bt wat to do, he lik it, i hav to accompany my "GIRLFRIEND".. lolx =P
looking at him~ hmm~ how come i'll bump into him?? i duno how he attracts me n how i attract him.. ??? weirdo~ bt d fact is... v r together rite now...
he brought me to meet up his fren, den, i realised sth, he reli vry vry FUNNY =.= he can laugh whole day duno for wat.. hmm, tis "galfren" reli...... "CUTE" omg omg!!
dun wanna be man le... T.T
ok, now wanna make my blog SPECIAL...
wanna tell someone!!!!
LESLIE, YOU ARE A COLOR WOLF!!!!!!!
lolx.. love ya dear... ^.^
duno how to describe the feeling.. we went back to MIDVALLEY AGAIN for our movie "Transformer 2". Tis movie quite nice actually, bt v sat in d 3rd row, of cos.... DIZZY @@ n, sometimes, reli wan to fall asleep, cos its too close to watch.. bt wat to do, he lik it, i hav to accompany my "GIRLFRIEND".. lolx =P
looking at him~ hmm~ how come i'll bump into him?? i duno how he attracts me n how i attract him.. ??? weirdo~ bt d fact is... v r together rite now...
he brought me to meet up his fren, den, i realised sth, he reli vry vry FUNNY =.= he can laugh whole day duno for wat.. hmm, tis "galfren" reli...... "CUTE" omg omg!!
dun wanna be man le... T.T
ok, now wanna make my blog SPECIAL...
wanna tell someone!!!!
LESLIE, YOU ARE A COLOR WOLF!!!!!!!
lolx.. love ya dear... ^.^
2009年6月6日 星期六
2009年5月26日 星期二
不舍2
最近都会勤劳写部落格……因为在等restaurant city level up。哈哈哈哈哈……
真的有很久都没有更新我的部落格啦!让各位久等啦！^^
今天一大清早就飞车去上课，因为迟到了!哈哈……不习惯要自己驾车去，没有人接送了!
一早就上了课“钓鱼”课，超闷的! 所以，一直在烦紫薇，说我要换course! 可是当然，虽然很想，但是是绝对不会换的！
无聊无聊！终于挨过了漫长的两小时，"旧"战友们一起约定了去看戏！整天最有精神最兴奋的时候就是和他们一起……虽然有点不舒服，可是还是会在笑声中遗忘我的不适……^^
看了“push” 这套戏……故事是不错，可是，拍得很乱，戏中的人都乱叫，打来打去，看得我好晕，又想吐，因为午餐吃了超难吃的粥！！@@
到了回家的时候，各走各的，说掰掰时，真的很不舍得，不知道什么时候再会再见……虽然还在同一间学校，可是相信很少会见面……不舍!! 当然，我承认，我也不会常msg他们啦！哈哈哈……
那种莫名的感觉，还一直围绕着我……闲掉 =.= "
还有一个朋友留级了，看见她，明显的不开心，可是就尽量不要提起她的伤心事，其实我也难过。
我们五个（五朵小花），各分东西……好闲啊！一点热闹的气氛都没有……
真的有很久都没有更新我的部落格啦!让各位久等啦！^^
今天一大清早就飞车去上课，因为迟到了!哈哈……不习惯要自己驾车去，没有人接送了!
一早就上了课“钓鱼”课，超闷的! 所以，一直在烦紫薇，说我要换course! 可是当然，虽然很想，但是是绝对不会换的！
无聊无聊！终于挨过了漫长的两小时，"旧"战友们一起约定了去看戏！整天最有精神最兴奋的时候就是和他们一起……虽然有点不舒服，可是还是会在笑声中遗忘我的不适……^^
看了“push” 这套戏……故事是不错，可是，拍得很乱，戏中的人都乱叫，打来打去，看得我好晕，又想吐，因为午餐吃了超难吃的粥！！@@
到了回家的时候，各走各的，说掰掰时，真的很不舍得，不知道什么时候再会再见……虽然还在同一间学校，可是相信很少会见面……不舍!! 当然，我承认，我也不会常msg他们啦！哈哈哈……
那种莫名的感觉，还一直围绕着我……闲掉 =.= "
还有一个朋友留级了，看见她，明显的不开心，可是就尽量不要提起她的伤心事，其实我也难过。
我们五个（五朵小花），各分东西……好闲啊！一点热闹的气氛都没有……
2009年5月25日 星期一
讨厌这种感觉，想你们！
很不习惯，看见了很多陌生的脸孔……
没有了熟悉朋友的背影，感觉很不自在……有种说不出的寂寞。
上课没有了吵杂声，没有了朋友们的笑声，感觉变了……
感觉像回到了两年前的第一天……
舍不得啊！！！！
到学校看见的人，没有了熟人，只有冷冷的陌生面孔……
上课遇到难题，没有了解答的人，只有满脑子的问号……
放学吃午餐，没有了人挤人的车，只剩下安静的空位……
回到了家，没有了开心的校园生活回忆，只有千百万个不舍……
睡觉前，没有了万分喜悦的期待明日的课，只有一万个不想……
想念你们啊朋友！！
虽然平时感觉不到你们真是的存在，可是，原来你们是我心中的一个必须……
没有了熟悉朋友的背影，感觉很不自在……有种说不出的寂寞。
上课没有了吵杂声，没有了朋友们的笑声，感觉变了……
感觉像回到了两年前的第一天……
舍不得啊！！！！
到学校看见的人，没有了熟人，只有冷冷的陌生面孔……
上课遇到难题，没有了解答的人，只有满脑子的问号……
放学吃午餐，没有了人挤人的车，只剩下安静的空位……
回到了家，没有了开心的校园生活回忆，只有千百万个不舍……
睡觉前，没有了万分喜悦的期待明日的课，只有一万个不想……
想念你们啊朋友！！
虽然平时感觉不到你们真是的存在，可是，原来你们是我心中的一个必须……
2009年1月4日 星期日
What A Day???
no chinese... so write in english..
today, whole day oso weird weird.. my mood weird, weather weird, ppl around oso weird..
at night no ppl are free for me.. i have to be alone again.. d feeling is not reli good..
after persuaded by someone, decide to date back my 'old fren' and meet up to hav dinner..
b4 sending msg of request, my heart beats were fast, extremely fast.. v have never met since.. vry vry long time ago, and d last time v met up, v've never talk to each other, jus lik enemy.. dats y i was worrying.. dun dare to send out d msg.. think think think and think for vry long.. at last, i jus send it out for trying purposes, and heart was hoping dat she would say dat she's not free tonight.. but she'd replied, n saying dat she can accompany me for dinner.. and now, i was thinking dat whether should i go?? fainted.. i totally duno wat i wan.. my heart was afraid to see her actually, since v've never talk to each other for so long.. duno how to face the feeling..
and the night finally arises, i'm nervous.. wanted to tell her i dun wanna go edi, but she told me she's ready.. hmm, have to go out anyway..
while driving, i kept thinking, but my mind was blank, weird huh.. d road to her hse, road dat i've long time missed.. strange.. as if i duno dat place.. reached her hse, she got up.. i... speechless, but however spoken sth.. dat was 'HELLO'.. FAINTED!!! never noe i'll be so shy in front of her.. n i cant imagine dat i said hello to her...!!! in d car, lik nth to say, my mind thinks again.. n she told me another fren oso wanna join, and i agreed??
whole night vry sien there.. both of them talking happily n suddenly i felt left out.. although they are sharing hot news of theirs, but i jus.. cant get into it.. whole nite, silence cover me.. they talk and i think..
although they were there, but i felt lonely.. mayb, i changed.. mayb old man's life style suits me more.. or mayb, my life grows w/out color? hahahahahaha.. felt dat their life is getting far far far away from me n i could never go into it.. feeling i'm a weirdo wit them.. whole nite heart beaten up fast.. til i cant breath either.. i shouldnt think dat way i guess, and v were reli good fren at d past, regretted never join her life.. and now being someone else outside her life..
not happy.........
today, whole day oso weird weird.. my mood weird, weather weird, ppl around oso weird..
at night no ppl are free for me.. i have to be alone again.. d feeling is not reli good..
after persuaded by someone, decide to date back my 'old fren' and meet up to hav dinner..
b4 sending msg of request, my heart beats were fast, extremely fast.. v have never met since.. vry vry long time ago, and d last time v met up, v've never talk to each other, jus lik enemy.. dats y i was worrying.. dun dare to send out d msg.. think think think and think for vry long.. at last, i jus send it out for trying purposes, and heart was hoping dat she would say dat she's not free tonight.. but she'd replied, n saying dat she can accompany me for dinner.. and now, i was thinking dat whether should i go?? fainted.. i totally duno wat i wan.. my heart was afraid to see her actually, since v've never talk to each other for so long.. duno how to face the feeling..
and the night finally arises, i'm nervous.. wanted to tell her i dun wanna go edi, but she told me she's ready.. hmm, have to go out anyway..
while driving, i kept thinking, but my mind was blank, weird huh.. d road to her hse, road dat i've long time missed.. strange.. as if i duno dat place.. reached her hse, she got up.. i... speechless, but however spoken sth.. dat was 'HELLO'.. FAINTED!!! never noe i'll be so shy in front of her.. n i cant imagine dat i said hello to her...!!! in d car, lik nth to say, my mind thinks again.. n she told me another fren oso wanna join, and i agreed??
whole night vry sien there.. both of them talking happily n suddenly i felt left out.. although they are sharing hot news of theirs, but i jus.. cant get into it.. whole nite, silence cover me.. they talk and i think..
although they were there, but i felt lonely.. mayb, i changed.. mayb old man's life style suits me more.. or mayb, my life grows w/out color? hahahahahaha.. felt dat their life is getting far far far away from me n i could never go into it.. feeling i'm a weirdo wit them.. whole nite heart beaten up fast.. til i cant breath either.. i shouldnt think dat way i guess, and v were reli good fren at d past, regretted never join her life.. and now being someone else outside her life..
not happy.........
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