I think i need to wake up. How this story gonna continue? I really cant control. The longer it goes, the more problems it came through. Maybe, i'm really sick and weak in a relationship. I'm not mature at all. How to be independent? The problems might not from us, but it would be from others. I wake myself up to face the reality. Its just too fast n rush. What i want actually? Do i really need worm inside my stomach to be with me? It will always come to a dead end.

There's a gap. Not with him, but with his friends. I bet if "you" are seeing this, you would agree. Yes! I see this problem. 1+1 will never equal 2. I persuade myself to be open-minded. I persuade myself to believe i'm one of them. I persuade myself to talk with them even i don't like to talk. "you" know my pattern. "you" know i hates to go social. But everyone just know. They would not take action. You and him, its the same.

1. Problems btween relationship

2. Problems btween connection of friends

How good if i don't have these problems to be chosen.

Avoid! Avoid! Avoid!