I've take a step in front ytd and started to argue with him. Who noes he din bother much on me. Reason for argument is ridiculous, but he seemed tahan me very very much.

Ytd watch a movie, Daniel would be you and Louis would be him. He's nice, humorous, fun, but playful until the other half cant feel like secureness. You are stable, loyal, the one who never would bully me again, but you're bored. For husband, Daniel is the ideal one, for lover, maybe he could be the one.

Someone kept ask me who would i choose after that movie. Well, i personally don't really quite like Daniel, I like guy who is fun. She told me, i'm not mature at all, what i could see is only things in front of me, every girl want to have husband like Daniel type. Yeah, i agreed with her actually. Thats why when i go home, i think until i dulan, and of cos sth trigger my temper and i told him i couldn't stand with him anymore. After talking with him, i don't dare to sleep. I scare when i wake up the next morning, i would find myself forget bout everything and lose my hot temper. I stayed up until 4. And not forgetting, i'm listening to the same song, again and again. "丁当——你为什么说谎。" I love this song a lot! Meaningful, and it helps to remind me about all unhappy stuff, dumb =(

But i couldnt stand, til i fall asleep. When i wake up this morning, i forgotten the pain he caused, i forgotten the result of ytd, which is to tell him i wanna have a rest. I forgot everything, what i noe is, i'm still in the dilemma. I'm lucky that every bf of mine is treating me extraordinary good. You, the worst, now is becoming better too. i could see that my dear.. wanted to msg u that i've made a try ytd, but, when i think dou i failed to become rock hearted, i dun even wanna talk about that. =( i dun like being in between. i wanna settle fast fast fast!! >< T.T useless me!!