Whole week stuck with the client's computer related to fraud.. Have to check every single files inside, and have to check it with a heart to cheat the company..Haiz...

Made me had a nightmare of myself cheating MY company.. WTF.. stop! nightmare stop!

I'm sad because of YOU..

I'm happy because of YOU..

I'm worry because of YOU..

Hope that there's nothing in between us to make us sad, only happiness may fill us..

I know you won't be reading this, because there's no more link in ur blog..

I know why you do not trust me. I know why you do not have faith with me..

But when i'm giving you some time, can you also think from my side?

I don't know whether shall I continue? Continue to be someone out of your life? Continue to be anonymous among your friends? Who am i? Your girl? Your friend? or not even that? I hope you understand, I just want some verification from you.

I fight so hard to have you back, I know I shouldn't give up because of this small matter.. But i'm really feeling unsecure, and lost.. I don't know where i belongs to..

I don't even dare to do things that will let your friends know about us, i respect your decision. I respect your choice. I silent~

How am I supposed to think? Since that, I'm just feeling so unsecure..

I felt that you might be leaving me one day.. I scare that you did not want to be with me anymore..

My feeling:

I saw everything changed, I'm scare and sad, but it is my fault, so I accept..

You gave me a chance, but you never change back what you have changed, my mind will kept thinking, are you going to leave me soon? I know I think too much unnecessary things.

I know this is definitely a small matter.. I know you would never care about this small matter..

I also know you really wanted to give me a chance.. I know you love me.. I know I love you too..But i cant stop thinking myself.. Because I've lost all my self confidence after that.. How to stop thinking Bi?? I cant control myself.. what i can do is just persuading myself that everything doesn't matter.. No one know about us also doesn't matter.. what is important is I can be with you..

Sorry to disturb you. I do not meant to wake you up from sleep.. I'm just lost.. hope to talk to you about my feeling.. I LOVE YOU!

p/s: my stomach pain since yesterday.. it never stop.. what happened??