经过了那么多，你还是要走……我可以有资格说些什么？

你想清楚了，那就走吧！

一路顺风……一切如意……

再见！！

我们

我们的问题，就是你觉得没有问题！

我难受……是因为我真的接受不了你这样的态度。

我难受……是因为你从来没有相信。

我难受……是因为你只懂得误会我，也没有想要听我解释。

我难受……是因为你认为我常要赢；但我没有。

我难受……是因为其他人对我不好，我都认了，但你不能！你却不知道……

结束

我不够坚强吗？

要考试了，我面对的压力，你又懂多少？

你常叫我为你想，那你有吗？

你还对我施压……对我说出那不负责任的话！

“朋友永远都比我好……永远都不再求我帮忙……”

你如果有在我的位子替我想，那你告诉我！我会有什么反应？

我什么都不想理！我想好好的考试……就算我觉得自己没错，我也低声下气的和你说话……

但我又得到了什么？又是你一次的辱骂！

我到底是你的谁？怎么总觉得我是个出气筒？！我不是！！！！

我恨你！！

我们没错……也许只是不适合~

OUT

After so many of unhappy posts, finally i felt happy now.. XD

Even though we are still quarreling like cats and dogs, but it seemed we are recovering faster than before.. =) We managed to go to Sunway, where he doesn't like, and its SATURDAY, which he HATES it.. haha

But because i drive there silently, and wake him up only when i reach, he got no choice but to bring me out, as i will be doing those silly face in front of him if he doesn't do so.. =)

OK.. i admit i'm really a shopaholic. When ever i 'm out, i just want to grab something home, even if its's just some food. =) after whole day of walking, i still cant get anything, i walk round n round, just to look for some clothes, mana tau he's influencing me..

Saying:"YER... not nice la.."when i pick on some clothes to try on..

ME:" Nice or not? Which colour nicer huh?"

HIM:"Ok a.. You like la.."

[Few minutes later~]

HIM:" I think its not nice la.. Put it back la.. very old.. bla bla bla~"

How am i going to shop leh? haih..

Saying:" SHOES again?!" when i'm walking into vincci and nose..

After all, finally have to go back to IOI for movie.. went back with empty hands.. T.T

Late night, 30 mins before the show starts, i still do not give up.. I was walking around and trying to have my last try.. Phew~ finally n grab 2 shirts in HURRY and run back to cinema..

"Eclipse"

The whole movie can see alot of kisses.. Aww~ overall, I rate it as NORMAL movie.. no interesting part, no sad part.. hmm.. i guess i'm not really into these LOVE MOVIE.. haih.. SIEN

BABE, C2BI,FEI GEI WONG, DAI-B ZAI....

I think I'm loving You still.. alot~ but sometimes, its just anger which covers our eyes.. make us blind and not seeing the love.. sometimes really feeling to let go, i even hate u, angry of u when quarrel.. But after all angers are gone, i'm back in love..

Sorry to make u tolerate with my bad temper lately, i'm not having other guys, i'm just.. having bad temper..

Weekends

I'm so disappointed with my weekends!

Staying at home is not a good choice.

Everyone wasn't around.

Even parents have got their outings.

I'm just alone at home facing facebook!

Am I going to have these life ahead??

=(

I hate

I don't like people who don't keep their promise

I don't like people who always don't know how to talk with me

I don't like

HMPH~

我受够了！！！

你到底有没有明白过我啊？

你到底知道我要什么吗？

为什么明明没有事，你要怨我？

我到底做错什么？！

我控制自己，没有发脾气，可是到最后，竟然是你！！

我好想痛哭一场！这到底是什么生活？！

Title-less

I need time so badly.

It seemed I've wasted my time for something not worth it.

I want to be good in everything.

But i realised the more I want, the more I have to give up.

Is it worth it to exchange for what I've gave up?

Doubt~

Since there's so much of uncertainty in life, then I think I should enjoy life now.

But not working like cow.

Yeah~ ^^

人应该向前看，但我喜欢往后想……

我怀念我们没在一起的日子，没有争吵，没有忧虑，没有烦恼，没有问题。

我觉得累时，我只需要往后想，什么累都会忘记……可以再继续我们的路。

我们的从前，很好，很甜，很幸福……

可是最近的我们，什么都不好，动不动就吵吵，再不就闹闹……我只想往回忆里跑，忘掉现在；跑回

从前……

Today is really too free. Took out old photo album and have a look. Found a lot of old memories. Missed the time when i do not know anything. Missed the time where i am free from worries.

Besides, i miss my grandpa too. =(

I'm missing "him" badly. I still remember how "he" played with me when i was little. I still remember how "he" would talk to me in hakka, as that's the only language "he" know, but yet, sometimes "he" would try to speak mandarin.

I remember how "he" fetch me to kindergarten using "his" old bicycle when i was late for school bus. I still remember "his" big body would always be in front of me to protect me.

I will never forget the day! The day where God bring "him" back to Him. Grandpa.. I missed you! "ngai hou xiong nian ngi"

Internship @ Crowe Horwath

It finally comes to the end for my 3 mths internship.. feeling sad cos gonna miss that place and the people alot alot alot.. during these 3 mths, u might ask what i did there?? I.. I don't know actually.. feeling like everything i did wasn't important and productive to them.. but when it comes to the last day, my director told me all admin stuff i've did, can train us.. bla bla bla.. he's really a good consultant.. CONsultant.. hahahahaha XD

I hope i can stay there n work, i dun even wanna go back to skul actually.. i enjoy the work there.. i see how they work.. i lik it.. jus dat some times have to learn n do sth new, it might frighten u.. ^^ but i m happy to learn.. i tried alot of new things.. i tried to call someone, a strangers, n try to ask about sth.. i tried to go to another company, n work myself, all alone.. =P i tried to work with someone that no ones like her for almost a week, n i still can survive with her there.. Nth is impossible, thats true.. if u wanna do it.. nth can stop u..

"People not borne to be strong, to be experienced. They gain it day by day. They can do it, why cant you?"

This helped me to force myself to try new things, learn new things.. ^^ felt myself filled with alot of phylo..

New Buddy known during intern.. *muack muack*

RAS Crowe Horwath (Alot missing from photo session)

Funniest Director of Crowe Horwath

RAS team @ sky bar.. happy hour ^^

4 trainees of RAS @ Delicious

RAS Ladies @ FullHouse

I noe most of the trainees don't like their company, wanna go back to skul faster, included my babe.. But its a stage where everyone need to go through.. sooner or later, we have to work.. you can choose where n what u wanna work as.. dun work as sth u dun lik, u'll regret.. overall, i felt my internship to be interesting! rate it as BEST.. thumbs up ^^

Someone told me, i'm lucky! i got a very good family, got a very good job (as trainee), got a very good boyfriend (doubt doubt XD).. Yeah~ i think i m really a lucky gal.. but i still need to work harder.. luck wont alwiz follow me.. i need to chase for success.. i'm a lil coward in everything, but i ll learn to do it myself.. Dun worry babe, i wont wan u to help me vry long.. blek =P

will miss them..

累了……

想放弃！

行吗？？

i duno when u wrote that.. i tot u've already understand d problems.. i called u.. cant reach.. 1st time got courage to call ur mum to wake u up.. but i guess.. u dun even giv a damn!...

u've deleted me from fb.. deleted d relationship.. i guess, msn oso u've deleted.. v cant redo anything.. u said u dun wanna waste time start all over again.. i'm urs means urs, no nid to start tackle again.. its sound lik playing..

i'm nt playing.. i seriously wan u chase me back, bcos i wanna let u noe.. its not ez to start a relationship, but its ez to say break up.. i skipped the starting part.. i felt everything is nt complete.. v've start quarreling since 2nd mth.. isnt this should be happiest period of all couples? v started too fast, i hope i can end everything n redo again..

u din feel my love? i play u? who play who now?? u tolerate? den who tolerate u? forgiv is hard i noe.. but everytime after quarrel, i forgive u.. i jus request for my bf to comfort me back after quarrel.. is dat hard for u??

fine le la... u ask me dun rmb all the bad things.. den y r u recording all d bad things.. until ytd night 4am.. u still dun believe me...

LESLIE LIP, its better to end i guess..

Whole week stuck with the client's computer related to fraud.. Have to check every single files inside, and have to check it with a heart to cheat the company..Haiz...

Made me had a nightmare of myself cheating MY company.. WTF.. stop! nightmare stop!

I'm sad because of YOU..

I'm happy because of YOU..

I'm worry because of YOU..

Hope that there's nothing in between us to make us sad, only happiness may fill us..

I know you won't be reading this, because there's no more link in ur blog..

I know why you do not trust me. I know why you do not have faith with me..

But when i'm giving you some time, can you also think from my side?

I don't know whether shall I continue? Continue to be someone out of your life? Continue to be anonymous among your friends? Who am i? Your girl? Your friend? or not even that? I hope you understand, I just want some verification from you.

I fight so hard to have you back, I know I shouldn't give up because of this small matter.. But i'm really feeling unsecure, and lost.. I don't know where i belongs to..

I don't even dare to do things that will let your friends know about us, i respect your decision. I respect your choice. I silent~

How am I supposed to think? Since that, I'm just feeling so unsecure..

I felt that you might be leaving me one day.. I scare that you did not want to be with me anymore..

My feeling:

I saw everything changed, I'm scare and sad, but it is my fault, so I accept..

You gave me a chance, but you never change back what you have changed, my mind will kept thinking, are you going to leave me soon? I know I think too much unnecessary things.

I know this is definitely a small matter.. I know you would never care about this small matter..

I also know you really wanted to give me a chance.. I know you love me.. I know I love you too..But i cant stop thinking myself.. Because I've lost all my self confidence after that.. How to stop thinking Bi?? I cant control myself.. what i can do is just persuading myself that everything doesn't matter.. No one know about us also doesn't matter.. what is important is I can be with you..

Sorry to disturb you. I do not meant to wake you up from sleep.. I'm just lost.. hope to talk to you about my feeling.. I LOVE YOU!

p/s: my stomach pain since yesterday.. it never stop.. what happened??

人真的不能贪心……

你有了，就一定要珍惜……难道有要等到他走了，你才哭着后悔挽留吗？

太迟了……

过去的一切，都没有做得很好……

愿所有被我伤害过的人都会过得很好！

在这里对你们说声对不起！我不想讨厌谁，只想大家都是朋友……

大家加油！！！

i'm BORED
so LONELY

can i have some ACTIVITIES???

From Fm

有个人，说了一句话，加强了我的意志力……

“爱一个人千万不要因为一些问题轻易说分手，说了出来就没有得回头，除非你真的不爱那个人了……所有问题都能解决……”

我还爱你！真的还爱！所以很想快点解决，但用错了方法……

现时有什么东西使我可以做的吗？

I don't want to change because of anyone~

I want to be myself!!!

刚听到：

“从前的我们，什么都没有，但过得很幸福……”

“现在的我们，什么都有了，但却过得不幸福……”

要怎样把握人生呢？

（有意思有意思~！）

What should I do?

Really conflicting~ this is to teach you do not promise until it is last minutes.. haiz..

It's bothering me! stupid! hate it! Cant do this, cant do dat.. thats limited.. damn! i cant even decide myself cos everything is being tied up.. i wan to be with u!!! to pass this last holiday.

But i couldn't! felt reli sad!!! =(