hmm~~ anything wrong?

He's got his life. His work. His gf.

What about you? just stop thinking rubbish and get back to YOUR life.. Life you have chosen..

YOU can make it.. Believe yourself darling... I love you~~

Tired of all these!!

Seemed like misunderstanding is looking for us now..

Argument is on its way to us too..

How could it be like that?

I just want a peace and stable relationship!!!

Is that so hard to find someone who really understand you??

This is not the life I want!! Everyday pretending. Even I myself also feels that I'm a rubbish! ><

This is not the life I want!! I'm feeling insecure. Every move I take its just to protect myself but ends up, I'm lost!!

Hates everything besides me! Hates the way I'm being treated! I just hate it! I'm done!!! I'm really done with all these things!

After few more days, my mind is still so messed up. I still couldn't get you out of my mind.

Gosh!! How come?! =(

I thought i could get rid of you. I thought i could forget. I thought i could cool down and think carefully. But i couldn't when i thought of you.. argh~!! God help me please!! =(((

I don't dare to see. Don't dare to think.

I finally decided to hide again.

Like an ostrich~ I'm always like that.

Sorry! Sorry to disappoint you! Take care~

This morning when i first received your message, i really stunned. I never expect you would still message me, and this time, you're angry.. how come you always misunderstood what i said? How come?

Yesterday's last post, I've already made up my mind to accept everything I've done. But your one message really pull me down to think again. I'm stupid! I don't know how to reject people. I'm soft hearted. If say more rudely, i'm always giving myself loads and tonnes of excuses.

That day when we chatted outside the restaurant, saw you crying, I wish i could hug you and say:" don't cry. heart pain." But end up, i just shakes your hand. I scare i would do something to hurt you more deeply. I scare i can't control myself when i see you. It a habit to be with you.

Now, i really hates this situation. I'm turning back to the situation 2 days back. I'm stucked inside again. I started to give myself a lot of questions. Do i love you for real? Do you love me for real? Or my love is just a habit of loving you? Its lame! I believe its excuses given for myself to release from burden.. AGAIN...

I told Issac that I want to concentrate on my studies, if anything affects it, i would better dump it.. but how could i do so? easily...? How would you do if you're in my position? teach me! I'm angry! to drag on like that!!! =(

Released~

Packing Packing Packing up~ Packing all my loves to you into a box.. When i'm free, i'll have a look..

Feels better after a little while chat with Issac.. Thanks a lot. You really did bring me out from going to the dead end. =D

Mario Zais are being abandoned as a result of divorcement of daddy and mummy.. poor little kid.. mummy will visit you all often.. But not everyday on the bed already. Something that needs to be let go, should be gone. Regret couldn't describe me now, cos i couldn't be! I'm an adult and should be responsible for whatever thing i decided. So, no use to be regretful now. I was WRONG, therefore i couldn't be doing the wrong thing again and again.

Used to talk to my mario zai when i had argument with u.. even scold them as i treated them as u.. hahahahaha =D but now, i'm gonna keep everything inside my memory box. Lock it. No one could gain access. Except myself. Thanks for giving me a nice memory to be put in. Wish u good good XD