it has been quite some time since i last heard about u.. i guess u 're living quite well.. 2 mths past, tepat tepat 2 months.. hmm~ found back one of our couple ring in my bag, where's urs?? some where in rubbish bin.. =( yea, it did remind me of sth of us, but its fading off.. ur image in my heart is blurred. Never see u on9 anymore, i guess u blocked me cos u really dun wanna hear frm me anymore..

wanna ask, "how are you?"

yea~ totally lost connection with u.. anything of u, i would never noe.. i still living those life, wanna go for part time job, but time table is full of studies.. n SHU accepted my application, gonna prepare for UK edi.. i'm quite excited.. how if v r still together? could v go thru this separation?? i think negatively, n d answer will be NO.. i guess i made a correct choice.. no more sorry to reduce my guilty, i'm glad to know dat u r better den last time.. u r free! yeapie!!! really hope everything good ll fall on u.. thank you so much!

I think i need to wake up. How this story gonna continue? I really cant control. The longer it goes, the more problems it came through. Maybe, i'm really sick and weak in a relationship. I'm not mature at all. How to be independent? The problems might not from us, but it would be from others. I wake myself up to face the reality. Its just too fast n rush. What i want actually? Do i really need worm inside my stomach to be with me? It will always come to a dead end.

There's a gap. Not with him, but with his friends. I bet if "you" are seeing this, you would agree. Yes! I see this problem. 1+1 will never equal 2. I persuade myself to be open-minded. I persuade myself to believe i'm one of them. I persuade myself to talk with them even i don't like to talk. "you" know my pattern. "you" know i hates to go social. But everyone just know. They would not take action. You and him, its the same.

1. Problems btween relationship

2. Problems btween connection of friends

How good if i don't have these problems to be chosen.

Avoid! Avoid! Avoid!

When time goes by, I'll be thinking back about the past, which would definitely shakes my decision.. I don't want to change my mind! I don't want to miss! It shouldn't be like this. I'll blame myself for being cruel to you. I'm sorry! Always not good in making decisions. =(

Maybe, we should really get ourselves to understand each others.

Maybe, we're just meant to be friend.

Maybe, we won't appreciate when we have what we want.

Maybe, we should be separated to get strengthen heart.

MAYBE...

Sorry

there's hundred, million of words to say, but i duno where to start..

For HIM,

i'm really loving u.. but i guess, the love is fading away.. not ur problem, but just me.. for me, problems between us, its like a hill tall, never got settled.. even if v come to a so-call "settle" point, there ll be next time to raise this issue.. i'm predicting our future, i see no future.. i'm tired of these problems, i'm tired cuz it will always come back to me.. i'm pist!! but who cares? i dun dare to accept u anymore, even if there's chances for me to change my mind.. i dun wanna give any chance, cos i'm protecting myself.. i'm done, i'm enough with that.. what i could say is, let go... let me go out from ur heart.. i'll still be beside u, but not who u wan me to be.. besides sorry, still

SORRY

经过了那么多，你还是要走……我可以有资格说些什么？

你想清楚了，那就走吧！

一路顺风……一切如意……

再见！！

我们

我们的问题，就是你觉得没有问题！

我难受……是因为我真的接受不了你这样的态度。

我难受……是因为你从来没有相信。

我难受……是因为你只懂得误会我，也没有想要听我解释。

我难受……是因为你认为我常要赢；但我没有。

我难受……是因为其他人对我不好，我都认了，但你不能！你却不知道……

结束

我不够坚强吗？

要考试了，我面对的压力，你又懂多少？

你常叫我为你想，那你有吗？

你还对我施压……对我说出那不负责任的话！

“朋友永远都比我好……永远都不再求我帮忙……”

你如果有在我的位子替我想，那你告诉我！我会有什么反应？

我什么都不想理！我想好好的考试……就算我觉得自己没错，我也低声下气的和你说话……

但我又得到了什么？又是你一次的辱骂！

我到底是你的谁？怎么总觉得我是个出气筒？！我不是！！！！

我恨你！！