confession

its tiring~ tiring to handle all my assignments, course works, and love...

i duno how can i relax n calm myself down..
its has been a vry tough month for me..

wonder if things would nv go wrong..
wonder if i'm still in my past..
wonder if i can appreciate the time i had..

wondering all the time~
had a lil crying session~
no one noe wats actually in my mind..
no one noe wat i reli wanted for my life..
no one noe d reasons i cried for..
I DUN UNDERSTAND TOO..

MENS are borned to be diffrnt..
diffrnt size, face, character, personality..
yet, i still cant find my PERFECT one.. a perfect person who can curb wit me..
i wonder, is there any perfect one around the other side of the world? do these person reli exist?

in the diffrnt part of the world, which is in here, i found alot.. alot ppl who i once THOUGHT they r d person, bt i once failed..
things would nv go right..
we r nt together doesnt mean d end of the world..
we r nt together is bcos God found that v r more suitable to be fren, forever fren..

some, break apart and together again.. tot that v can reli curb wit each other, bt actually, its another lie..
tried to change alot for ppl.. saw ppl change alot for me..
wondering~ if v could oni be fren from the beginning, v would nv had a bad ending~ v can alwiz be fren.. fren to help each other..

THANKS to all of u who perfect my life, who helped me to walk thru few years or months..

习惯

习惯是可以改的……

“你不试一试，又怎知道改不到？”

但是，真的有些习惯是改不了的！
你习惯了就是习惯了，你要怎样改，都不会改到……
因为你的习惯，就是你的性格！
永远都改不了……

恨我！

我不开心！
请问有人会知道吗？有人会关心吗？

心跳

我们一个月了……

当中，有过欢乐，有过斗气，有过争吵……
感觉上，这一个月，过得很漫长…… 是因为不开心所以才过得慢吗？

不是！！

是了解对方太多了……感觉上，就像在一起一年了……^.^

想对你说：“很高兴认识你！虽然之前常吵架，但是，你都肯迁就我，让我……不知道你是不是真的有改变，但，我依然相信你……看到你的心了！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。 每当我听到心跳这歌，我会想起你，一定……想起你对我说的话……真的很高兴和你在一起！”

rojak

当你遇到危险时，你第一个想起的人，会是现在在一起的人吗？
当你一觉睡醒，第一个想到的人，又会是你枕边的人吗？
当你遇到困难，帮你解决的，会是你觉得最亲的人吗？
当你无聊时，找到的人，会是你想要的他陪你的人吗？

一个人的时候，真的会想得很多……
一个人静静的时候，也是最清醒的时候……
所以，
我爱一个人细考……
我爱有私人发呆时间……
我爱发呆！

最近时间不够用……一起的时间真的少之又少，我只想当你得空时，找找我……
很想你和我说话……我并没有和你在一起时都摆臭脸。只是在烦恼着……我们的话题……

family~

jus finished dying hair for mum.. since last time helped her dye, she nw everytime oso nid me.. XD seldom so guai lui, oni noe how to gik parents.. felt so sorry to them..
saw mum's hair, all from black turning to white, think alot..
parents' r getting older now, left nt much time to b wit them, yet i alwiz go out, 1 week oso nv eat wit them once.. i tis sui lui, reli vry bad...

alwiz think:
wat if, they r no longer here?
wat if, they do not love us anymore?
wat if, they dun bother n care for us anymore?

for me, i'll b sad.. bt duno for others how..
now, sometimes, feel dat they vry ma fan, vry annoying, once they scold me vry hope they dun k of me anymore, jus dun bother wat i do, jus let me hav my freedom..
but somehow, they r jus too care for us...

jus now daddy scolded me for buying those rubbish snacks.. scolded vry angryly.. i jus dun understand, y he reacted so over... hmmm, reli vry angry of him at dat time.. bt after cooling down, he's jus caring for me... i shouldnt fight back.... regreted

DADDY MUMMY!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

Yong Tau Foo

early in the morning wake up by bao bei.. wanna to sleep awhile more but nan tak he call me, so need to wake myself up oso... decided to wake mummy up to bring me for sinseh...

i woke up at 1030.. wait til 1 oni go out....
i was late to dear... he kept complain wanna hungry sei jor.... aiyo, bt nt i wan de ma... family's habit... too mo~ haha ^^
after dat, v went to ampang to hav his breakfast.. AMPANG YONG TAU FOO!!! 1st reached there tot din open, no ppl de.. felt so horrible.. lolx.. bt later on oni ppl coming in...
was quite full, cos had my bfast wit parents, bt bcos dun wanna see him eat alone, i joined.. omg, super FULL... bluek~
b4 goin back to his hse, he asked me sth bout him... n i dun wanna answer.. i dun wanna tell him anything bout him.. i dun wanna think dat last time.. i duno, i gt no confidence... i scare d more i think back, i'll miss him... dats y dear, i ask u dun mention bout him anymore.. dun go see anything of him.... for now, i'm jus for u... sorry to annoyed u.... i jus wanna hav a bright future wit u.. i did not lie to u... everything i said was true... whether to blif or nt, u decide la k?

had a memorable day in dat hse~ reli very MEMORABLE~ swt = = since its so memorable, i think its better to keep inside my heart... n bao bei, dun forget wat u've promised me.... never ever break ur promise k? wakakakakaka ^^

at nite~
dinner time... duno where to eat... reli think liao alot of places oso cant get 1 ideal place... finally. he came out wit an idea, IPOH ROAD YONG TAU FOO.. omg, yong tau foo again leh.. i was thinking, nid to so gila to eat yong tau foo anot o? whole day yong tau foo leh... bt, as he likes la.. i oso ok de... oso eat oni ma... nw think back, oso wanna vomit... tired of eating YONG TAU FOO~

TO Bao Bei,
reli noe u nt long ago.. bt i can feel dat u r d vry responsible person.. i noe u tried to do everything nice n perfect for urself n for everyone... i love it when seeing u wit ur serious face.. i lik guy to be serious.. lolz.. bt most of the time, u look lik my gf more den my bf, u r jus lik a small kid in front of me n everyone, so, actually, i felt a lil bit unsecure.. u r unpredictable.. i duno wat r u goin to do next.. therefore, for now... i'll try up my best jus to love u dear~ i love u!