LittLe DiaRy

2011-09-04T11:44:00.000-07:00

I wanna tell the whole world that i have another bad birthday again!!!!

Do i have the right to tell that??

I Fucking hate you!!!

Ruin my life, Ruin my birthday!! What else u wanna ruin?

Asshole!! Liar!! Bullshit!! Bitch!!!

Even i'm worse! I know you are so bad, yet i forgive and forget!!! What the hell am i thinking??

Fuck off!!!!!!

Dear "someone"

2011-08-12T03:32:00.000-07:00

Life here in UK is dull with assignments, but would be great with all the trips! =D

Accidentally pressed into your blog and saw the photo of your convocation.. Gratz =)

I hope we could actually be friend, but when i'm down with my problems, you came in and give me some "solution" without actually know the actual problem, i remember i mad at you again that night.. so so so sorry, no one can stay calm with this kind of problems happened right? SORRY.. =)

With the video you sent, i'm thinking you should be seeing back moment v been together? haha.. i would sometimes do this too, but that's all just memory to be kept. =) My first ever "surprise" birthday, collaborate with my parents too.. thanks for giving me such a memorable birthday last year.. This year gonna stay on my own already =(

Great to know that you could actually let go the feeling of yours to me. Hope the best of the best would come to you. Somehow, there's no need to make this extreme step to stop becoming friend, i would wish to have one more friend better than one more stranger. Cheers.

2011-04-12T06:43:00.000-07:00

找男朋友，要找一个爱自己，疼自己，对自己好的……

我让他走了。

对我好的人，一个一个地走了……

留下的是对我不好，一直重复着我不喜欢的事……

我不玩了！

我要单身！

2011-04-06T02:38:00.000-07:00

I've take a step in front ytd and started to argue with him. Who noes he din bother much on me. Reason for argument is ridiculous, but he seemed tahan me very very much.

Ytd watch a movie, Daniel would be you and Louis would be him. He's nice, humorous, fun, but playful until the other half cant feel like secureness. You are stable, loyal, the one who never would bully me again, but you're bored. For husband, Daniel is the ideal one, for lover, maybe he could be the one.

Someone kept ask me who would i choose after that movie. Well, i personally don't really quite like Daniel, I like guy who is fun. She told me, i'm not mature at all, what i could see is only things in front of me, every girl want to have husband like Daniel type. Yeah, i agreed with her actually. Thats why when i go home, i think until i dulan, and of cos sth trigger my temper and i told him i couldn't stand with him anymore. After talking with him, i don't dare to sleep. I scare when i wake up the next morning, i would find myself forget bout everything and lose my hot temper. I stayed up until 4. And not forgetting, i'm listening to the same song, again and again. "丁当——你为什么说谎。" I love this song a lot! Meaningful, and it helps to remind me about all unhappy stuff, dumb =(

But i couldnt stand, til i fall asleep. When i wake up this morning, i forgotten the pain he caused, i forgotten the result of ytd, which is to tell him i wanna have a rest. I forgot everything, what i noe is, i'm still in the dilemma. I'm lucky that every bf of mine is treating me extraordinary good. You, the worst, now is becoming better too. i could see that my dear.. wanted to msg u that i've made a try ytd, but, when i think dou i failed to become rock hearted, i dun even wanna talk about that. =( i dun like being in between. i wanna settle fast fast fast!! >< T.T useless me!!

2011-04-04T06:49:00.000-07:00

You always strike through my mind when i think about future and marriage. Why?! I also don't know. Maybe you just gave me a secured feeling??

"Can you please make clear your direction and make me know how to continue mine."

This is what you always asked. Always, and normally, i couldn't answer.

Help me to feel, whether do I still love you?

On the other hand, if i really really love him, I would have already decide to leave you, stop everything with you. But now instead, i din't. It goes the same the other way round. I just need accompaniment?! WTF!!

I'm looking for chances to stop everything. A chance that is suitable for me to say it out loud. I think, it would be hard to get back to you. I want everything to start from friend, even with him.

"I Love You" is easy to say, but its not easy to prove. I've said this thousand times to tell myself I really do love. Its a word to make myself believe too.

I miss you, for the days we have been through. I miss you, for the days we first met. But a strong love seemed lacking and fading away between us? Can you feel that?

When i look at him, and when he asked do i love, i think really hard, but every time, my answer was a lie. If don't love, we cant even continue to walk.

I envy my friend that just got married. I envy my friend that can couple for many many years, their love is so strong. But i also have friend that do not know how to treasure their other half, just like you and I did. I felt so sorry for them.

Where are we now? I really want to tell you everything and discuss with you face to face.. But i just found myself lack of words when i see you.. =( Can anyone help me to sort it out? Those who understand me, not much. Maybe, you are the one?

2011-04-03T02:53:00.000-07:00

I had a clear mind today. I've decide to do what i should do 2 months back.

Would you help me?

After awhile, only i realized what you said was so true. I just need someone to be by my side every time i need one. He couldn't give me now. So, i din't very fond of him anymore.

But same to you. The only different is she couldn't defeat my rock heart but you did shake me a bit. I thought you were a good accompaniment, but end up, you sucks! LOL.. still i never want to leave you. You are such a kid for me, every of your move, is just so.. kiddy.. Sometimes i even need to take responsibility of a big sister to take care of you.

There are so much so much, ALOT memorable memory of us.. But it just meant to keep that behind. Lets start our new chapter.. =)

2011-04-02T02:56:00.000-07:00

hmm~~ anything wrong?

He's got his life. His work. His gf.

What about you? just stop thinking rubbish and get back to YOUR life.. Life you have chosen..

YOU can make it.. Believe yourself darling... I love you~~

2011-04-01T08:24:00.000-07:00

Tired of all these!!

Seemed like misunderstanding is looking for us now..

Argument is on its way to us too..

How could it be like that?

I just want a peace and stable relationship!!!

Is that so hard to find someone who really understand you??

2011-03-31T04:13:00.000-07:00

This is not the life I want!! Everyday pretending. Even I myself also feels that I'm a rubbish! ><

This is not the life I want!! I'm feeling insecure. Every move I take its just to protect myself but ends up, I'm lost!!

Hates everything besides me! Hates the way I'm being treated! I just hate it! I'm done!!! I'm really done with all these things!

2011-03-27T07:53:00.000-07:00

After few more days, my mind is still so messed up. I still couldn't get you out of my mind.

Gosh!! How come?! =(

I thought i could get rid of you. I thought i could forget. I thought i could cool down and think carefully. But i couldn't when i thought of you.. argh~!! God help me please!! =(((

2011-03-24T07:03:00.000-07:00

I don't dare to see. Don't dare to think.

I finally decided to hide again.

Like an ostrich~ I'm always like that.

Sorry! Sorry to disappoint you! Take care~

2011-03-23T09:21:00.000-07:00

This morning when i first received your message, i really stunned. I never expect you would still message me, and this time, you're angry.. how come you always misunderstood what i said? How come?

Yesterday's last post, I've already made up my mind to accept everything I've done. But your one message really pull me down to think again. I'm stupid! I don't know how to reject people. I'm soft hearted. If say more rudely, i'm always giving myself loads and tonnes of excuses.

That day when we chatted outside the restaurant, saw you crying, I wish i could hug you and say:" don't cry. heart pain." But end up, i just shakes your hand. I scare i would do something to hurt you more deeply. I scare i can't control myself when i see you. It a habit to be with you.

Now, i really hates this situation. I'm turning back to the situation 2 days back. I'm stucked inside again. I started to give myself a lot of questions. Do i love you for real? Do you love me for real? Or my love is just a habit of loving you? Its lame! I believe its excuses given for myself to release from burden.. AGAIN...

I told Issac that I want to concentrate on my studies, if anything affects it, i would better dump it.. but how could i do so? easily...? How would you do if you're in my position? teach me! I'm angry! to drag on like that!!! =(

Released~

2011-03-22T11:31:00.001-07:00

Packing Packing Packing up~ Packing all my loves to you into a box.. When i'm free, i'll have a look..

Feels better after a little while chat with Issac.. Thanks a lot. You really did bring me out from going to the dead end. =D

Mario Zais are being abandoned as a result of divorcement of daddy and mummy.. poor little kid.. mummy will visit you all often.. But not everyday on the bed already. Something that needs to be let go, should be gone. Regret couldn't describe me now, cos i couldn't be! I'm an adult and should be responsible for whatever thing i decided. So, no use to be regretful now. I was WRONG, therefore i couldn't be doing the wrong thing again and again.

Used to talk to my mario zai when i had argument with u.. even scold them as i treated them as u.. hahahahaha =D but now, i'm gonna keep everything inside my memory box. Lock it. No one could gain access. Except myself. Thanks for giving me a nice memory to be put in. Wish u good good XD

Left or Right? End up Straight

2011-03-22T08:16:00.000-07:00

What position i'm at right now?

How i use my heart to see things now?

Do i love you? Do i love him?

How come i'm feeling that the history is repeating..?

Same heart crashed.

I don't really love you when i'm with you.

Honestly, it's because you appear at the correct timing, then, you din't bother about me. I felt pain, cuz i thought i choose the wrong one. After some time, your attitude changed. Better! I'm willing to do a lot of things because of you. Slowly, i really fall in love with you. I could be with you at home whole day long, never complain of boredom, because seeing you would fill my day with joy.

Happy time flies. We started to lack out of topic. Communication breaks down. When you talk, i don't understand, when i talk, you don't bother. It has been some time where this situation continue. You accompanied me through this advanced diploma's life. Everyday after class, a MUST action is to wait you to have dinner. Hug you. Kiss you. I miss the time. Everyday seemed filled for me. But i hate the time we argued, we quarreled. Really wasted a lot of tears and time quarreling.. If i have a time machine, i would never start the quarrel.

Honestly, you're the first guy who made me cried for like few hundreds of times. You're also the first guy who ask for break up every time. You're the first one who i will always follow your wish. You're the first one who i will always try to entertain you. You're the first one who i cook dishes for you. You're the first one who i never even dare to angry of you overnight.

Although we started in an unexpected way, but, You're always the first one of many things.

Now, what is the condition?

You asked me not to drag you. I wanted to forget about you TOO! I don't wanna remember you as my "bi".. I THOUGHT i've get rid of our memory after being together with him. Din't expect there's still a lot of things popped out when i'm writing this. Yesterday, i told you to let go. I don't wanna drag you, don't wanna waste your time. I was wrong. Cuz i thought i won't be looking back anymore. Now, when i'm thinking, i see back the history.

Just a simple words from you. It really killed my heart. I was stunned when i saw that. I finally understand about your feelings. If this is your purpose of writing so, Congratz, you've succeed. You really did hurt me before you go. I never know what you do will still have impact on me. Still recalling our talk few days back. Its really relax. As what i recall, we have never had such conversation when we date. NEVER! I love the feeling, if we are still together, it would be great. In my heart, i kept thinking about being back together, but i'll never take action. I guess you noe me, i'm this kind of person. Pathetic to be one.

I see that you said your parents like her.

Gratz too. Hope everything will end well for you and her. Maybe, what i said yesterday is really true. Once pain is better than long dragging pain. I'll let go. Memory will stay. Just for me to remember. Bye my dear. Really do take care and good luck for your future undertakings. You would be one rich man! But don't forget of having such ex.

=heart ends=

2011-03-22T07:47:00.001-07:00

MESSED!! =(

Clarice Yap!!! wake up wake up and wake up!!!

NO NO NO!! It won't hurt you anymore.. NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

T.T it is pain.. ='( why are you still having this ability? Compared to you, i think my life is totally messed up.

Hope you WONT be seeing this. Wanna close my blog to private, but i duno how.. idiot as usual~ =(

wanna cry a~~~!!!!!

calm down calm down.. nth's gonna hurt u.. he's letting u feel how he felt.. great! now u got to feel that.. and OUCH! it is pain, damn fuking pain!!! Get out from my body you fuking stupid heart!

Congratz! You won! Cos i still love.. damn stupid feeling! ARGH~

2011-03-21T08:40:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU!

My heart pains when i thought she's your close girl friend.

I pretend i don't care. I pretend it doesn't hurt at all. I pretend not hearing. I pretend that i'm okay in front of u. I pretended. Did you realized?

I try to kill your hopes. When talk to you in phone, i really felt enlighten and happy. We've NEVER talk like that before. I love that time, you were talking patiently, listening to me. How good if everything could happen before everything goes wrong? Hope i wish~

It's good to let us know, dragging like this comes no benefit to both of us. It's not only you, those who really give out loves, HURTS! Sorry. It might not be the best word to mention, but, that's the only word.

Hope you would be fine. Hope you could succeed in everything. You're great! You really are!

2011-03-18T09:18:00.000-07:00

I have almost forgotten about the feeling..

Because it never appear for some time when i'm with you..

I never worry you will run away from me because of some other girls..

This is call stable i guess? This is call secured i guess? This is call trust i guess?

The only problem we have was understanding. I don't have the problem right now, but i have a lot of other problems.

I'm feeling insecure. I'm scared. I'm losing trust. I don't believe. I'm alone.

I'm so damn worried and scared!

2011-03-13T09:48:00.001-07:00

When i pick up the call today.. i don't know it will end up like that.

YOU! are still you... when YOU're fucked up.. u won't listen to others. Thats you..

after so long, i merely forgotten what person you are.. in my memory, you're so nice to me, b4 we really break apart now..

THE CALL, has really waken me up.. nothing has changed and nothing can be done.. i never ever think of stepping inside your life.. NEVER! believe or not, up to you.. i know no matter what i said, its just rubbish for you..

When i was scolding, did you ever noticed that i almost cry? I thought i can live peacefully, but one call destroyed everything, even my heart.. after v are separated, i still kena scolded.. why? i'm good to scold?? i've tolerate too much in the past, you're the first one who scolded me like no one cares and yet i still loved you.. But now.. i wont!

You have your life and i'll have mine.. Hope it wont happen again and i wont be picking up any phone calls from you and shouting at me.. You should not have the power to hurt me anymore! NEVER!

I miss you, there's alot alot of things to tell you.. But i could oni talk to thin air now... :(

2011-03-07T08:00:00.000-08:00

2011-03-04T06:53:00.000-08:00

it has been quite some time since i last heard about u.. i guess u 're living quite well.. 2 mths past, tepat tepat 2 months.. hmm~ found back one of our couple ring in my bag, where's urs?? some where in rubbish bin.. =( yea, it did remind me of sth of us, but its fading off.. ur image in my heart is blurred. Never see u on9 anymore, i guess u blocked me cos u really dun wanna hear frm me anymore..

wanna ask, "how are you?"

yea~ totally lost connection with u.. anything of u, i would never noe.. i still living those life, wanna go for part time job, but time table is full of studies.. n SHU accepted my application, gonna prepare for UK edi.. i'm quite excited.. how if v r still together? could v go thru this separation?? i think negatively, n d answer will be NO.. i guess i made a correct choice.. no more sorry to reduce my guilty, i'm glad to know dat u r better den last time.. u r free! yeapie!!! really hope everything good ll fall on u.. thank you so much!

2011-02-12T10:49:00.000-08:00

I think i need to wake up. How this story gonna continue? I really cant control. The longer it goes, the more problems it came through. Maybe, i'm really sick and weak in a relationship. I'm not mature at all. How to be independent? The problems might not from us, but it would be from others. I wake myself up to face the reality. Its just too fast n rush. What i want actually? Do i really need worm inside my stomach to be with me? It will always come to a dead end.

There's a gap. Not with him, but with his friends. I bet if "you" are seeing this, you would agree. Yes! I see this problem. 1+1 will never equal 2. I persuade myself to be open-minded. I persuade myself to believe i'm one of them. I persuade myself to talk with them even i don't like to talk. "you" know my pattern. "you" know i hates to go social. But everyone just know. They would not take action. You and him, its the same.

1. Problems btween relationship

2. Problems btween connection of friends

How good if i don't have these problems to be chosen.

Avoid! Avoid! Avoid!

2011-01-20T07:45:00.000-08:00

When time goes by, I'll be thinking back about the past, which would definitely shakes my decision.. I don't want to change my mind! I don't want to miss! It shouldn't be like this. I'll blame myself for being cruel to you. I'm sorry! Always not good in making decisions. =(

Maybe, we should really get ourselves to understand each others.

Maybe, we're just meant to be friend.

Maybe, we won't appreciate when we have what we want.

Maybe, we should be separated to get strengthen heart.

MAYBE...

Sorry

2011-01-15T08:20:00.000-08:00

there's hundred, million of words to say, but i duno where to start..

For HIM,

i'm really loving u.. but i guess, the love is fading away.. not ur problem, but just me.. for me, problems between us, its like a hill tall, never got settled.. even if v come to a so-call "settle" point, there ll be next time to raise this issue.. i'm predicting our future, i see no future.. i'm tired of these problems, i'm tired cuz it will always come back to me.. i'm pist!! but who cares? i dun dare to accept u anymore, even if there's chances for me to change my mind.. i dun wanna give any chance, cos i'm protecting myself.. i'm done, i'm enough with that.. what i could say is, let go... let me go out from ur heart.. i'll still be beside u, but not who u wan me to be.. besides sorry, still

SORRY

2010-11-28T02:06:00.000-08:00

经过了那么多，你还是要走……我可以有资格说些什么？

你想清楚了，那就走吧！

一路顺风……一切如意……

再见！！

我们

2010-11-11T22:54:00.000-08:00

我们的问题，就是你觉得没有问题！

我难受……是因为我真的接受不了你这样的态度。

我难受……是因为你从来没有相信。

我难受……是因为你只懂得误会我，也没有想要听我解释。

我难受……是因为你认为我常要赢；但我没有。

我难受……是因为其他人对我不好，我都认了，但你不能！你却不知道……

结束

2010-08-20T04:06:00.000-07:00

我不够坚强吗？

要考试了，我面对的压力，你又懂多少？

你常叫我为你想，那你有吗？

你还对我施压……对我说出那不负责任的话！

“朋友永远都比我好……永远都不再求我帮忙……”

你如果有在我的位子替我想，那你告诉我！我会有什么反应？

我什么都不想理！我想好好的考试……就算我觉得自己没错，我也低声下气的和你说话……

但我又得到了什么？又是你一次的辱骂！

我到底是你的谁？怎么总觉得我是个出气筒？！我不是！！！！

我恨你！！

2010-07-31T05:23:00.001-07:00

我们没错……也许只是不适合~

OUT

2010-07-10T20:22:00.001-07:00

After so many of unhappy posts, finally i felt happy now.. XD

Even though we are still quarreling like cats and dogs, but it seemed we are recovering faster than before.. =) We managed to go to Sunway, where he doesn't like, and its SATURDAY, which he HATES it.. haha

But because i drive there silently, and wake him up only when i reach, he got no choice but to bring me out, as i will be doing those silly face in front of him if he doesn't do so.. =)

OK.. i admit i'm really a shopaholic. When ever i 'm out, i just want to grab something home, even if its's just some food. =) after whole day of walking, i still cant get anything, i walk round n round, just to look for some clothes, mana tau he's influencing me..

Saying:"YER... not nice la.."when i pick on some clothes to try on..

ME:" Nice or not? Which colour nicer huh?"

HIM:"Ok a.. You like la.."

[Few minutes later~]

HIM:" I think its not nice la.. Put it back la.. very old.. bla bla bla~"

How am i going to shop leh? haih..

Saying:" SHOES again?!" when i'm walking into vincci and nose..

After all, finally have to go back to IOI for movie.. went back with empty hands.. T.T

Late night, 30 mins before the show starts, i still do not give up.. I was walking around and trying to have my last try.. Phew~ finally n grab 2 shirts in HURRY and run back to cinema..

"Eclipse"

The whole movie can see alot of kisses.. Aww~ overall, I rate it as NORMAL movie.. no interesting part, no sad part.. hmm.. i guess i'm not really into these LOVE MOVIE.. haih.. SIEN

BABE, C2BI,FEI GEI WONG, DAI-B ZAI....

I think I'm loving You still.. alot~ but sometimes, its just anger which covers our eyes.. make us blind and not seeing the love.. sometimes really feeling to let go, i even hate u, angry of u when quarrel.. But after all angers are gone, i'm back in love..

Sorry to make u tolerate with my bad temper lately, i'm not having other guys, i'm just.. having bad temper..

Weekends

2010-06-26T21:50:00.000-07:00

I'm so disappointed with my weekends!

Staying at home is not a good choice.

Everyone wasn't around.

Even parents have got their outings.

I'm just alone at home facing facebook!

Am I going to have these life ahead??

I hate

2010-06-26T08:06:00.000-07:00

I don't like people who don't keep their promise

I don't like people who always don't know how to talk with me

I don't like

HMPH~

2010-06-20T09:13:00.000-07:00

我受够了！！！

你到底有没有明白过我啊？

你到底知道我要什么吗？

为什么明明没有事，你要怨我？

我到底做错什么？！

我控制自己，没有发脾气，可是到最后，竟然是你！！

我好想痛哭一场！这到底是什么生活？！

Title-less

2010-06-13T08:46:00.000-07:00

I need time so badly.

It seemed I've wasted my time for something not worth it.

I want to be good in everything.

But i realised the more I want, the more I have to give up.

Is it worth it to exchange for what I've gave up?

Doubt~

Since there's so much of uncertainty in life, then I think I should enjoy life now.

But not working like cow.

Yeah~ ^^

2010-05-27T23:10:00.000-07:00

人应该向前看，但我喜欢往后想……

我怀念我们没在一起的日子，没有争吵，没有忧虑，没有烦恼，没有问题。

我觉得累时，我只需要往后想，什么累都会忘记……可以再继续我们的路。

我们的从前，很好，很甜，很幸福……

可是最近的我们，什么都不好，动不动就吵吵，再不就闹闹……我只想往回忆里跑，忘掉现在；跑回

从前……

2010-05-16T07:50:00.000-07:00

Today is really too free. Took out old photo album and have a look. Found a lot of old memories. Missed the time when i do not know anything. Missed the time where i am free from worries.

Besides, i miss my grandpa too. =(

I'm missing "him" badly. I still remember how "he" played with me when i was little. I still remember how "he" would talk to me in hakka, as that's the only language "he" know, but yet, sometimes "he" would try to speak mandarin.

I remember how "he" fetch me to kindergarten using "his" old bicycle when i was late for school bus. I still remember "his" big body would always be in front of me to protect me.

I will never forget the day! The day where God bring "him" back to Him. Grandpa.. I missed you! "ngai hou xiong nian ngi"

Internship @ Crowe Horwath

2010-05-15T09:07:00.000-07:00

It finally comes to the end for my 3 mths internship.. feeling sad cos gonna miss that place and the people alot alot alot.. during these 3 mths, u might ask what i did there?? I.. I don't know actually.. feeling like everything i did wasn't important and productive to them.. but when it comes to the last day, my director told me all admin stuff i've did, can train us.. bla bla bla.. he's really a good consultant.. CONsultant.. hahahahaha XD

I hope i can stay there n work, i dun even wanna go back to skul actually.. i enjoy the work there.. i see how they work.. i lik it.. jus dat some times have to learn n do sth new, it might frighten u.. ^^ but i m happy to learn.. i tried alot of new things.. i tried to call someone, a strangers, n try to ask about sth.. i tried to go to another company, n work myself, all alone.. =P i tried to work with someone that no ones like her for almost a week, n i still can survive with her there.. Nth is impossible, thats true.. if u wanna do it.. nth can stop u..

"People not borne to be strong, to be experienced. They gain it day by day. They can do it, why cant you?"

This helped me to force myself to try new things, learn new things.. ^^ felt myself filled with alot of phylo..

New Buddy known during intern.. *muack muack*

RAS Crowe Horwath (Alot missing from photo session)

Funniest Director of Crowe Horwath

RAS team @ sky bar.. happy hour ^^

4 trainees of RAS @ Delicious

RAS Ladies @ FullHouse

I noe most of the trainees don't like their company, wanna go back to skul faster, included my babe.. But its a stage where everyone need to go through.. sooner or later, we have to work.. you can choose where n what u wanna work as.. dun work as sth u dun lik, u'll regret.. overall, i felt my internship to be interesting! rate it as BEST.. thumbs up ^^

Someone told me, i'm lucky! i got a very good family, got a very good job (as trainee), got a very good boyfriend (doubt doubt XD).. Yeah~ i think i m really a lucky gal.. but i still need to work harder.. luck wont alwiz follow me.. i need to chase for success.. i'm a lil coward in everything, but i ll learn to do it myself.. Dun worry babe, i wont wan u to help me vry long.. blek =P

will miss them..

2010-04-24T11:22:00.000-07:00

累了……

想放弃！

行吗？？

2010-04-09T20:01:00.000-07:00

i duno when u wrote that.. i tot u've already understand d problems.. i called u.. cant reach.. 1st time got courage to call ur mum to wake u up.. but i guess.. u dun even giv a damn!...

u've deleted me from fb.. deleted d relationship.. i guess, msn oso u've deleted.. v cant redo anything.. u said u dun wanna waste time start all over again.. i'm urs means urs, no nid to start tackle again.. its sound lik playing..

i'm nt playing.. i seriously wan u chase me back, bcos i wanna let u noe.. its not ez to start a relationship, but its ez to say break up.. i skipped the starting part.. i felt everything is nt complete.. v've start quarreling since 2nd mth.. isnt this should be happiest period of all couples? v started too fast, i hope i can end everything n redo again..

u din feel my love? i play u? who play who now?? u tolerate? den who tolerate u? forgiv is hard i noe.. but everytime after quarrel, i forgive u.. i jus request for my bf to comfort me back after quarrel.. is dat hard for u??

fine le la... u ask me dun rmb all the bad things.. den y r u recording all d bad things.. until ytd night 4am.. u still dun believe me...

LESLIE LIP, its better to end i guess..

2010-03-20T03:57:00.000-07:00

Whole week stuck with the client's computer related to fraud.. Have to check every single files inside, and have to check it with a heart to cheat the company..Haiz...

Made me had a nightmare of myself cheating MY company.. WTF.. stop! nightmare stop!

2010-03-14T07:09:00.000-07:00

I'm sad because of YOU..

I'm happy because of YOU..

I'm worry because of YOU..

Hope that there's nothing in between us to make us sad, only happiness may fill us..

2010-03-12T19:26:00.000-08:00

I know you won't be reading this, because there's no more link in ur blog..

I know why you do not trust me. I know why you do not have faith with me..

But when i'm giving you some time, can you also think from my side?

I don't know whether shall I continue? Continue to be someone out of your life? Continue to be anonymous among your friends? Who am i? Your girl? Your friend? or not even that? I hope you understand, I just want some verification from you.

I fight so hard to have you back, I know I shouldn't give up because of this small matter.. But i'm really feeling unsecure, and lost.. I don't know where i belongs to..

I don't even dare to do things that will let your friends know about us, i respect your decision. I respect your choice. I silent~

2010-03-06T20:52:00.000-08:00

How am I supposed to think? Since that, I'm just feeling so unsecure..

I felt that you might be leaving me one day.. I scare that you did not want to be with me anymore..

My feeling:

I saw everything changed, I'm scare and sad, but it is my fault, so I accept..

You gave me a chance, but you never change back what you have changed, my mind will kept thinking, are you going to leave me soon? I know I think too much unnecessary things.

I know this is definitely a small matter.. I know you would never care about this small matter..

I also know you really wanted to give me a chance.. I know you love me.. I know I love you too..But i cant stop thinking myself.. Because I've lost all my self confidence after that.. How to stop thinking Bi?? I cant control myself.. what i can do is just persuading myself that everything doesn't matter.. No one know about us also doesn't matter.. what is important is I can be with you..

Sorry to disturb you. I do not meant to wake you up from sleep.. I'm just lost.. hope to talk to you about my feeling.. I LOVE YOU!

p/s: my stomach pain since yesterday.. it never stop.. what happened??

2010-02-19T01:11:00.000-08:00

人真的不能贪心……

你有了，就一定要珍惜……难道有要等到他走了，你才哭着后悔挽留吗？

太迟了……

过去的一切，都没有做得很好……

愿所有被我伤害过的人都会过得很好！

在这里对你们说声对不起！我不想讨厌谁，只想大家都是朋友……

大家加油！！！

2010-02-19T01:09:00.000-08:00

i'm BORED
so LONELY

can i have some ACTIVITIES???

From Fm

2010-02-11T06:55:00.000-08:00

有个人，说了一句话，加强了我的意志力……

“爱一个人千万不要因为一些问题轻易说分手，说了出来就没有得回头，除非你真的不爱那个人了……所有问题都能解决……”

我还爱你！真的还爱！所以很想快点解决，但用错了方法……

现时有什么东西使我可以做的吗？

2010-02-10T16:51:00.000-08:00

I don't want to change because of anyone~

I want to be myself!!!

2010-01-13T01:46:00.001-08:00

刚听到：

“从前的我们，什么都没有，但过得很幸福……”

“现在的我们，什么都有了，但却过得不幸福……”

要怎样把握人生呢？

（有意思有意思~！）

2010-01-12T05:08:00.000-08:00

What should I do?

Really conflicting~ this is to teach you do not promise until it is last minutes.. haiz..

It's bothering me! stupid! hate it! Cant do this, cant do dat.. thats limited.. damn! i cant even decide myself cos everything is being tied up.. i wan to be with u!!! to pass this last holiday.

But i couldn't! felt reli sad!!! =(

=(

2009-12-28T09:27:00.000-08:00

days before exam..
Its now 1.28am tuesday.. tmr i have an early morning 8am class.. yet, i'm still wandering in net.. "insect trapped on d spider web".. haih... year 2009 going to end soon.. every year end ll be a sentimental one..

wat i did in 2009??? its jus NOTHING.. i did alot alot alot of wrong things.. i must apologise for my mistake, which have made all of us suffer.. sorry~ everything not happy, dun keep inside your heart forever, leave some space for ur new life..

exam coming soon.. it starts on 16th of January 2010, ends on 25th of January.. after dat, i'll be sent to internship at KL, Horwath.. duno should i be happy or worry? izt a good chance for me? i reli dun think i suits their company so much.. my results in adv dip sux.. =( even stupid is better den me alot alot alot~ felt embarrassing!!!

swore to work hard for the coming exam.. n yet.. until tis week 13, i did nth.. jus 4 subjects, i think i cant even manage either one perfectly.. DAMN!!!! i hate myself for being lazy.. no more ohm to move on.. no more ppl to chase me go study.. no more~ i have to work on all by myself.. haiz... =(
depressed~

how to study? how to work?? help me pls...

i hate my lauzy english.. languages are getting poorer for me.. sux.. wat to do???!!

Ugly Things!

2009-12-03T01:07:00.000-08:00

"Love Power" rely on the party who cares less.. [ The Ugly Truth ]

i found it can be used in many situation and object..
everything i care is against me now!!! Darn!
what i want i would NEVER get it, what i do not want i'll always get it FIRST!
What i care the most i could NEVER protect it, what i do not care it will always be with me!

Great example,
My laptop - i clean it everyday, cover it nicely, use it gently.. [ended up spoiling soon]
My SE w850i - i do not allow people to use it harshly, not even a bit harder.. [ended up in the process to phone repair shop]
My SE c902 - always cover it after used, pull the lense up softly when wanna on d cam.. [ended up scratches on the screen, dropped to the floor, side half damaged]
My car - although i did not always clean his outfit, but i still love him~ [ended up scratches here and there]

everything belongs to me is really against me.. hate it! should not protect it so well isnt? should jus left it born and live by itself right? ARGH~~ HATE it soooo much!!!!

Human.. will it also be the same???

stupid!

2009-11-29T04:16:00.000-08:00

AM i STUPID for BOTHERING what YOU said??!!!

=(

2009-11-22T07:06:00.000-08:00

STRESSED!!!!

wanna rest a!!!

Mixture of mood

2009-11-18T05:43:00.000-08:00

Ytd afternoon, went to a restaurant wit comic.. to discuss assignment.. it is located at somewhere around genting klang.. once i enter tis restaurant, super silent lik library.. how to discuss assignment in such a situation??! den, me n chan hoe decided to go down to a mamak, n have my cup of hot milo to cure my gastric.. after around 15mins, den oni v got back to dat restaurant. once v sit down, a gal came to us, n asked us to order sth to drink or eat.. v do not wan to order any as d food there reli expensive and lauzy!!

the gal said,

{if u wanna sit here n read, den u MUST atleast order sth above RM4, we have hot and cold drinks here. Which would u wan?}

[Den wat if v din read the comic here? can v dun order sth as i'm not feeling well]

{But, i saw u walk in and out. If u r not reading, but u still enjoyed the air-condition here. So pls order sth.} *there's extremely hot!*

[Den 1 hot milo, how much?]

{RM6 for hot milo}

Damn!!! the taste of the milo lik plain water, jus d colouring of milo exists!!!

At night,

i had my class until 7.30pm. Dated piggy bi go steamboat. No parking after few rounds. Finally parked my car n he ask me go up. I tot he doing wat serious things, who noe?! Watching pps, "Star War".. Zzz still ask me sit down n watch wit him.. my stomach was grumbling.. hungry~ luckily, he 'sik zou'.. stopped half way..

Headed to 'Hometown Steamboat'~~

1st time steamboat wit him.. n 1st time hav steamboat wit only 2pax (for him).. hmm~ good 1st time, cos i full til wanna vomit!! and my weight hav dramatically increased! haih~

Some other update on my small lil family~

There are 4 more members joined.. Thanks to bi ^^ wakakakaka.. after seeing them, wat unhappy incident ll jus fade off.. muakss

Today~

2009-11-14T09:04:00.000-08:00

How should i start? How should it ends? Never expect to see its end.. never imagine of seeing it.. i saw it today~ w/out any preparation.. i was worried.. i was scared.. i was confused.. i was alone~ i'm very angry of myself.. i'm so serious on it.. but how come it jus cant go right when i'm seriously on sth? i doubt~ doubt every single thing in this world at d seconds.. i hate everything which make me walk on this.. i blame myself.. not anyone~ mind was full of shit!! [ Thats how i feel at that '2nd time' ]

Malefactor for today~ XD

after all, i'm still feeling it.. trying to figure out a way where v could live peacefully~ i'm scare to have d 3rd time.. pls dun tell me for 3rd time~ i think, v have our heart-to-heart talk today, n i reli hope u can understand me more from today onwards.. i too love peace.. hope this wont offend u.. ^^

my most 'expensive' dinner~

Besides, other than above incidence, i'm still quite excited & happy on sth..

Da dang~ bought myself a mini mario.. love it.. gonna go for luigi, yogi & evil mushroom soon.. muacks!

Love U Galss so much!!

2009-11-04T07:00:00.000-08:00

Today isnt a good day for me.. End up alot of things today~

Did something which really hurts him.. I see tears and anger in his eyes.. i'm scared~

At night, was alone at home.. long time never enjoy lonely life at home~ it is peaceful.. atleast my HOME is far away from the noises from city~ far away from quarrelsss..

Surf net is my only entertainment in my peaceful house~ my "ji mui", heng dai or what so ever -- ah woo, find me thru msn.. he knew i bad mood due to the arguement, suggested to buy me ice kacang!! yeah yeah~ miss ice kacang w/out red bean so so so muchie!!!

da dang!! kepong's ice kacang~

yum yum~ i think i din eat ice kacang for... almost a year or more?? thank you so much le ah woo~~ MUAAAH!

I remember someone told me that we could hardly get any sincere fren from college life.. but, i'm lucky, bcos i got whole group of besties!!! thanks for making me not ALONE~ i LOVE u guys.. "Ji Mui" Roxxx

Silly

2009-10-10T04:48:00.000-07:00

Already get used to this kind of lifestyle. Even weekends also I'll be at home be good girl! yeah~! "Good Gal" finally can be used on me! ^^

Although its just d 1st week of schooling, but i can already smell the stress and pressure.. =( our lecturer this semester all super dumper Hyper-Active.. they don't just give lecture, they walk here and there, touch this and that, if you did pay attention in class, you will become dizzy. @.@ Zzz non-stop moving.. ( i felt dizzy too cause i did pay attention in class v^.^v )

Next is the matter of internship, although i haven choose and haven even prepare my resume, i felt so nervous now.. wakakaka.. hyper-tension =.=" but i believe, working will be definitely much more better den studying! AGREE!! Yeah~

Really felt so bored! Darn boring! Til i wrote out so many non-sense here.. anyone would like to date me out??? I'm not suitable to be Good Gal.. not qualified..

两种老公两种人生

2009-10-08T03:41:00.000-07:00

A:她：“老公。帮我接杯水呗。”
他：“石头剪子布。谁输了谁去。”
她：“算了。我自己去吧。”

B:他们坐在一起看韩剧。她起身。他问“干吗去？”
她：“去接杯水。”
他：“你坐这看吧。我去给你接。”

女人多可怜。她对男人唯一的要求就是“疼她”。你可以什么都没有。只要你疼她。她就有足够的勇气把自己的下半辈子交给你。
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A:他晚上下班。给她打电话“宝贝儿。我晚上和朋友出去吃饭。”
她：“你不是答应我陪我逛街的吗？”
他：“改天吧！”
她默默地流泪。为什么每次都是这样？

B:他下班的时候打电话给她:“亲爱的。别人给我一张奥运会的票。巴西队啊！一会儿我去

看球了啊。”
她：“哦。这样啊。好吧。”
他：“怎么不高兴了？”
她：“你忘了。上周说好今天我朋友和她男朋友请我俩吃饭啊。”
他：“哎呀。对不起亲爱的。我忘记了。那我把票给别人吧。我陪你去吃饭。”
她：“不要了。吃饭可以改天。或者你先去看。我们等你。”
他：“那不行。答应你的事情必须得做到。再说你自己跟他俩在一起像电灯泡似的。你肯定不舒服啊”
她：“没事……”

没等她说完。他很强势的告诉她“好了。听我的。你收拾一下。我一会儿去接你。”
其实女人不是不懂事。只是。她需要碰上一个懂事的男人。其实。情侣之间。是可以互相的。

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A:他：“我晚上出去吃饭了啊。”
她：“几点回家？”
他：“九点之前肯定回家。”
九点半，她：“你怎么还不回来啊？”
他：“十点。肯定回家。”
十一点。十二点。一点。两点……
后来。她不再打电话催他。因为她知道。对于不守承诺的男人。一切“肯定”都是“未必”。

B:他：“我晚上出去吃饭。九点之前肯定结束。然后我俩去看电影。”
她：“你能那么快就结束吗？”
他：“放心吧。我答应你了就一定能！”
快到九点的时候。他：“收拾一下吧。我马上就到你家了”

信任。是在一件一件小事中建立起来的。
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A:她生理期。身体不舒服。顶着疼痛洗衣服。收拾屋子。
他坐在电脑前面玩网络游戏。
她干完活。躺在床上。长出了一口气。
他看了她一眼：“宝贝儿。辛苦了！”然后转过头。继续玩他的游戏。

B:她生理期。很难受。起身准备洗衣服。
他拽住她：“你去床上躺着。我来！”
她：“你会做家务吗？你自己洗过衣服吗？”
他：“不会做可以学着做啊。以后你身体不舒服的时候。我当然得独挡一面！”

女人需要的不只是甜言蜜语。哄她几句。她也许会给你一个微笑。但是实实在在的呵护。她会对你一辈子的感恩。并且会回报给你一个温暖的家。
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A:她给他拿了一包榛子。然后她去洗衣服。
回来的时候。榛子已经被他吃得所剩无几。

B:她拿给他一包榛子。然后自己去收拾屋子。
回来的时候。她看见电脑前面放了一堆剥好的榛子仁。

女人很感性。她炫耀你对她的体贴。就好像炫耀克拉钻一样。这么廉价的买卖。用一点心思就能收获无比的财富。
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A:他说：“你是最好的。”
她问：“我哪好？”
他：“学历高。能力强。长得漂亮。对我又这么好。”
她笑了。

B:他：“你是我所遇到最好的女孩儿。”
她：“我哪好？”
他：“你对身边的每个人都很友善。很无私。对人对生活总是很感恩。一个人有一颗善良的心。会让周围的人感觉到温暖。你是我见过最善良的女孩儿。伤害你的人都应该下地狱！”
她哭了。

一个人。是因为你对他好。所以觉得你好。
一个人。是因为懂得你的好。所以想要对你好。
幸福的恋人。首先应该是一对彼此欣赏的知己

Piece of Thinking

2009-10-06T08:30:00.001-07:00

hoa~!!!

1st week usually very free~ whole day at home, car broke down, cant go anywhere... SIEN!
took out an old video made by someone.. inside, contains of my memories with fren.. went to Penang, Kedah, Cameron, Ipoh, Pangkor.. Miss it so so so much.. just dat now, sth had broke us apart.. i think its hard to have a trip where v can all play a fool.. hmm.. so darn miss it er!!!! anyone wanna organize any trip? i would vry much appreciate.. ^^

1st week of skul, i've decided another thing.. i must pay 100% concentration and effort on my studies.. which i did not do it last sem.. i did not put effort on studying, i admit.. sth bothered me so much.. til i reli cant concentrate on my studies.. i'm quite sure dat i'll get a sux result in d coming friday.. Oh my God~ everytime think about my result, i'm gonna vomit blood n reli had a serious headache on it! Fuk~

Relaxed

2009-10-03T12:18:00.000-07:00

21 hours more til holiday ends.. what the... so fast 2 weeks of holidays past.. phew~ disastrous~! hate it!!i don't wanna study~ boring~ everyday facing books and notes, school reopen means assignments and coursework coming up.. Finals result also coming out at 16 OCT.. WTH!! 1 subject certified, killed... haiz..

Today is a very special day... lantern-festival, moon cake festival, mid-autumn festival.. whatever ll do la...
went to a park.. played with candle.. whole concentration on d candle.. long time never touch n celebrate this festival, since i was still a child..

slanting candle made by me ^^

2 "Hello Kitty" lantern to chase away the mosquitoes.. ^^

a weird style of putting a candle.. created by someone smart =.=

finally not forgetting our main character, Mr. Moon.. XD *with my fingers*

its not a big celebration.. but it does pull me back to my childhood life.. saw a lot of children were playing candle n holding lantern in d playground, felt... OLD.. I'm now 20 years old.. 10 years back, I might have done d same thing too.. missed that time so darn much.. although today wasn't going on with the actual plan, this sudden plan make me felt relax too.. burned off our "hello kitty" lantern n go home...

(I Just Want My Life To Be As Simple As Today!)
A Simple Meal Can Keep Me Happy For Whole Day. A Simple Talk Can Keep Me Away From Problems. A Quiet Moment Can Keep Me Revising Of My Past Fault.

Life is all about simple for me.. i don't need any luxurious or pompous present.. i just need someone to talk to, i just need accompaniment! I hope i have a sister.. but i wouldn't got one.. so, I'm now seeking for someone, anyone..

changing~

2009-09-20T07:49:00.000-07:00

jus had a quarreling session.. i WAS not happy, n WAS sad..
but now.. out of nth, i realised sth..
if when u r not in good mood, everything inside ur brain ll be bad things oso, try not to listen or look at pessimistic things anymore, it will make u feel worse.. n cry for nth.. cry cant settle anything, jus a medium to vent ur problems, somehow, it make things got worse.. dats wat i alwiz experienced..

had a movie.. although its not really a nice movie, bt it does really cheer me up alot.. i dun think about those unhappy things anymore.. jus wan my life to be simple n happy.. somehow wished myself is still d small kid.. w/out stress w/out proper thinking.. wat kids noe is jus PLAY.. yu-hoo~ i jus trying to get back dat life.. take everything dat ll fall on me.. take everything God wants me to experienced.. i'll more den willing to accept all these.. no human are perfect, n no one borned with zero-mistake.. but if u urself dun make things complicated, dat problems wont be complicated.. oni humans make their life so difficult~

wanna to change myself.. think less, do more; speaks less, do more.. wahaha.. abit abnormal about my blog, as i jus wanna dumped all my sadness, my temper, all down to the drain!!!

3个月

2009-09-20T02:34:00.000-07:00

今天第三个月……我只想好好的过。
没想到会有什么事发生……

但就是会有一些事阻挡着……
我以为只要我爱你，什么都可以？
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
天真的想法……什么都不想了……
过得开心就好！！
我爱你！

影子

2009-09-18T10:09:00.000-07:00

为什么我一定要活在别人的影子？
为什么我一定要满足你所有的要求？
难道我真的可以一点主见都没有？
我知道我是代替品……我不想做你要我做的人！
我也想可以用自己的方式活着！我受不了了！
我也不想继续了！我要做回我自己！！！
我讨厌你！讨厌做第二选择！！！！！！

Unsecure

2009-09-18T09:34:00.000-07:00

a lil too sensitive?
a lil too naive?
a lil too pessimistic?

YA.. i guess i am..
i'm feeling so unsecured right now!! on everything i did n i gonna do..
everytime i found out sth bout u... especially sth dat for me - sensitive, i couldn't stop thinking..
i do not hope i did dat too.. i'm really controlling well for d past few months.. i think, i couldn't manage my feelings, my mood, my temper, n everything in my life..

Damn tired of living those life.. i'm longing to have some improvement.. everytime i hope, i wont get it.. HAHA.. God is really getting me wrong~ mayb its nt His planning, its jus bcos of my dumbness..

You would NEVER noe how unsecure n how fears cover my heart~ i'm worrying for every sec n min. u got a better choice, i do not have any~ YA, i'm weak, i'm noodle~ i dun wan to rely on ANYone ANYmore.. damn hesitate to do so~ never noe how much i need someone.. until i feel d loneliness myself.. i standing up alone.. not dependent on anyone.. i hav to learn even if i duno~
process of learning is tough is hard.. i'll overcome it.. dun worry.. no matter wat, i gonna grow up~

lost in d life

2009-08-27T06:41:00.001-07:00

i should be rushing to finish my syllabus now.. bt i duno where d feeling comes, which urges me to BLOG...

have been quite busy lately.. after finishing those lengthy and stressful assignment, i've to start studying.. boring skul life...
a lil nervous to sit for my ADV DIP 1st ever final exam.. cos, inside my huge brain, there's jus a tiny part which contains those academic materials (sad huh?) furthermore, i duno wats wrong with me tis very 1st sem of adv dip, i failed my paper.. 1st time in my life failed important paper... i dun lik tis 1st time, n i'll rmb it til i die.. i wont allow me to fail anymore, bt honestly inside my heart, there's actually a thorn, stop me from going and moving on.. i'm afraid of it.. no confidence over it.. i cant be brave to overcome it, no supports..

i wanted to find sth which can help me to stand up.. tough and straight.. i couldn't find any~
i felt alone.. everyday wake up not knowingly wat to do.. i'm jus following my planned schedule.. everyday travel to and from coll.. not knowing the purposes and aims..
i too felt lost...

YA!! i agree wit u.. i was d one where others will come for me to ask me on d subject.. but now, everything is jus turning UP-SIDE-DOWN.. i became the one who ask for others' help.. seek for help... i dun lik to be d weakest one.. i wanna to b d toughest..

i was once crying while i travel back from coll.. not knowing d reason for crying.. i jus can feel my heart is overloading wit problems.. i jus wanna to find a place to hide myself n cry out loud. The place which i could find - my room.. i spent most of my time in my room alone.. i felt comfortable when i'm alone.. do not need to pretend and could do watever things i lik.. dats wat call free...

tis sem i've my shopping session once a week.. every week must hav atleast sth in my bag.. duno d problem i'm facing, jus wanted to buy myself sth to cheer me up, bt NOT AT ALL.. I'M NOT HAPPY AT ALL...

where goes my HAPPINESS? where goes my FREEDOM?? where goes my COURAGE?? where goes my TOUGHNESS?? where goes CLARICE YAP SHIN YHEE??

sleepy blog

2009-08-21T10:10:00.000-07:00

should i feel happy in tis 2 months? my brain told me i should be... and must be...

i'm not sure.. not sure bout u, me, and us..

i hate d suspecting and doubting feelings which i got from u and my heart..

i got alot of question marks inside my brain n heart.. cos..

i reli duno wat i wan.. i hope i could concentrate on things dat i've started.. bt, things were nv be so great to allow u to do dat.. haiz...

14/08/2009

2009-08-14T08:36:00.000-07:00

where should i start my story??
lets start with the happy part.. today went out wit my super super frens..
vry vry happy at first... long time never talk for the whole day, laugh for the whole day..
college's life now is too dull for me.. no more laugher.. =(

today din planned to buy anything, jus go out accompany wei buy present for her RU.. den accidentally bought myself sth.. after buying, realised money i take out jus now was all gone.. omg.. dats d money which i planned to use for the whole week including petrol.. sad-nya.. y no one stop me when i buy things??? reli fainted...

after tired of walking, v got to stop at a shop which sells alot of soft toys.. stayed there for a vry long time.. bought sth for ourselves.

cow's key chains r mine n a tan.. d other 2 is for another 2 soh poh.. quite nice a d cow.. lik it.. haha..

AT NIGHT
all of us r reli exhausted.. tired.. sleepy+hungry.. fetch yuan back... den go kepong eat..
unfortunately, sth bad happened.. haiz.. today whole day duno y jus scare when driving.. or sitting cars.. dun lik d feeling.. tan got accident.. sienz liao lo.. haven eat den jiu sth lidat happened..where got mood o?? i'm reli sorry cos... dumped u all bhind... haiz.. bt, dat time reli alot cars.. cant stop.. reli guilty.. bt luckily, nt vry serious.. lidat oso fong sum abit.. now is reli exhausted.. tired.. hungry.. haiz... =(

confession

2009-08-02T00:27:00.000-07:00

its tiring~ tiring to handle all my assignments, course works, and love...

i duno how can i relax n calm myself down..
its has been a vry tough month for me..

wonder if things would nv go wrong..
wonder if i'm still in my past..
wonder if i can appreciate the time i had..

wondering all the time~
had a lil crying session~
no one noe wats actually in my mind..
no one noe wat i reli wanted for my life..
no one noe d reasons i cried for..
I DUN UNDERSTAND TOO..

MENS are borned to be diffrnt..
diffrnt size, face, character, personality..
yet, i still cant find my PERFECT one.. a perfect person who can curb wit me..
i wonder, is there any perfect one around the other side of the world? do these person reli exist?

in the diffrnt part of the world, which is in here, i found alot.. alot ppl who i once THOUGHT they r d person, bt i once failed..
things would nv go right..
we r nt together doesnt mean d end of the world..
we r nt together is bcos God found that v r more suitable to be fren, forever fren..

some, break apart and together again.. tot that v can reli curb wit each other, bt actually, its another lie..
tried to change alot for ppl.. saw ppl change alot for me..
wondering~ if v could oni be fren from the beginning, v would nv had a bad ending~ v can alwiz be fren.. fren to help each other..

THANKS to all of u who perfect my life, who helped me to walk thru few years or months..

习惯

2009-07-31T07:22:00.000-07:00

习惯是可以改的……

“你不试一试，又怎知道改不到？”

但是，真的有些习惯是改不了的！
你习惯了就是习惯了，你要怎样改，都不会改到……
因为你的习惯，就是你的性格！
永远都改不了……

恨我！

2009-07-27T07:43:00.000-07:00

我不开心！
请问有人会知道吗？有人会关心吗？

心跳

2009-07-23T04:37:00.000-07:00

我们一个月了……

当中，有过欢乐，有过斗气，有过争吵……
感觉上，这一个月，过得很漫长…… 是因为不开心所以才过得慢吗？

不是！！

是了解对方太多了……感觉上，就像在一起一年了……^.^

想对你说：“很高兴认识你！虽然之前常吵架，但是，你都肯迁就我，让我……不知道你是不是真的有改变，但，我依然相信你……看到你的心了！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。每当我听到心跳这歌，我会想起你，一定……想起你对我说的话……真的很高兴和你在一起！”

rojak

2009-07-21T07:56:00.000-07:00

当你遇到危险时，你第一个想起的人，会是现在在一起的人吗？
当你一觉睡醒，第一个想到的人，又会是你枕边的人吗？
当你遇到困难，帮你解决的，会是你觉得最亲的人吗？
当你无聊时，找到的人，会是你想要的他陪你的人吗？

一个人的时候，真的会想得很多……
一个人静静的时候，也是最清醒的时候……
所以，
我爱一个人细考……
我爱有私人发呆时间……
我爱发呆！

最近时间不够用……一起的时间真的少之又少，我只想当你得空时，找找我……
很想你和我说话……我并没有和你在一起时都摆臭脸。只是在烦恼着……我们的话题……

family~

2009-07-05T09:24:00.000-07:00

jus finished dying hair for mum.. since last time helped her dye, she nw everytime oso nid me.. XD seldom so guai lui, oni noe how to gik parents.. felt so sorry to them..
saw mum's hair, all from black turning to white, think alot..
parents' r getting older now, left nt much time to b wit them, yet i alwiz go out, 1 week oso nv eat wit them once.. i tis sui lui, reli vry bad...

alwiz think:
wat if, they r no longer here?
wat if, they do not love us anymore?
wat if, they dun bother n care for us anymore?

for me, i'll b sad.. bt duno for others how..
now, sometimes, feel dat they vry ma fan, vry annoying, once they scold me vry hope they dun k of me anymore, jus dun bother wat i do, jus let me hav my freedom..
but somehow, they r jus too care for us...

jus now daddy scolded me for buying those rubbish snacks.. scolded vry angryly.. i jus dun understand, y he reacted so over... hmmm, reli vry angry of him at dat time.. bt after cooling down, he's jus caring for me... i shouldnt fight back.... regreted

DADDY MUMMY!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

Yong Tau Foo

2009-07-04T08:47:00.000-07:00

early in the morning wake up by bao bei.. wanna to sleep awhile more but nan tak he call me, so need to wake myself up oso... decided to wake mummy up to bring me for sinseh...

i woke up at 1030.. wait til 1 oni go out....
i was late to dear... he kept complain wanna hungry sei jor.... aiyo, bt nt i wan de ma... family's habit... too mo~ haha ^^
after dat, v went to ampang to hav his breakfast.. AMPANG YONG TAU FOO!!! 1st reached there tot din open, no ppl de.. felt so horrible.. lolx.. bt later on oni ppl coming in...
was quite full, cos had my bfast wit parents, bt bcos dun wanna see him eat alone, i joined.. omg, super FULL... bluek~
b4 goin back to his hse, he asked me sth bout him... n i dun wanna answer.. i dun wanna tell him anything bout him.. i dun wanna think dat last time.. i duno, i gt no confidence... i scare d more i think back, i'll miss him... dats y dear, i ask u dun mention bout him anymore.. dun go see anything of him.... for now, i'm jus for u... sorry to annoyed u.... i jus wanna hav a bright future wit u.. i did not lie to u... everything i said was true... whether to blif or nt, u decide la k?

had a memorable day in dat hse~ reli very MEMORABLE~ swt = = since its so memorable, i think its better to keep inside my heart... n bao bei, dun forget wat u've promised me.... never ever break ur promise k? wakakakakaka ^^

at nite~
dinner time... duno where to eat... reli think liao alot of places oso cant get 1 ideal place... finally. he came out wit an idea, IPOH ROAD YONG TAU FOO.. omg, yong tau foo again leh.. i was thinking, nid to so gila to eat yong tau foo anot o? whole day yong tau foo leh... bt, as he likes la.. i oso ok de... oso eat oni ma... nw think back, oso wanna vomit... tired of eating YONG TAU FOO~

TO Bao Bei,
reli noe u nt long ago.. bt i can feel dat u r d vry responsible person.. i noe u tried to do everything nice n perfect for urself n for everyone... i love it when seeing u wit ur serious face.. i lik guy to be serious.. lolz.. bt most of the time, u look lik my gf more den my bf, u r jus lik a small kid in front of me n everyone, so, actually, i felt a lil bit unsecure.. u r unpredictable.. i duno wat r u goin to do next.. therefore, for now... i'll try up my best jus to love u dear~ i love u!

我不知道！

2009-07-03T03:03:00.000-07:00

我想要的，你不知道……
我不想要的，你全做了……

我不知道你了解我吗？你关心我吗？
我生气些什么，你会知道吗？
我想生气，但我不敢……憋着憋着，不好受……

我不了解你……甚至有些怕你……不想有这种感觉出现……
我想走得更远，想多点认识你……但你并没有很友善的让我了解！

怕你嫌我烦，嫌我闷，嫌我管着你……
所以……………………
我选择什么都不要做！什么都不要管，那会是最好的么？

dull

2009-07-02T09:38:00.000-07:00

wat a good day...

woke up at 7 in d morning, bt my class start at 10. still gt plenty of time for me...

date dear for breakfast, tot wanna let him sleep a lil bit more, so purposely do everything SLOWLY..

finished at 830, den go out, go hav my breakfast lu~ but, once i turn into d high way which cant u-turn, he called me up, said he gt exam at 9, he had to go to skul NOW~ i was lik.. wt...f.....

i purposely wake up for him leh..... bt luckily, i found zi wei to acc me!

da dang~!!!! ZI WEI... my 救命恩人！！

n ordered a breakfast set wit bread n omega eggsss..

super hungry... bt i whole day vry energetic.. mayb is bcos of d OMEGA eggs... wish to hav this kind of bfast everyday.. bt i'm lazy...

at nite..

had dinner wit dear, after dat, rushing to my gathering... den stupid him bring me dau fa yun, duno where i went oso... stupid la.... follow main road better...

after safely come out from d maze, i went to 5bianz gathering.. as usual, i din talk much..sitting there, facing ppl dat i.... dun wanna face.. sien de lo.... wait for sis to come... mana tau, she came after 2 hrs.. reli zd.. wait her wait dou wanna fall asleep... =.="

den... nth much happen.. jus dun wanna talk bout anyone... n hope u reli ll b ok... as a fren, dun wanna to see u act happy in front of me... jus show out real YOU ok?

=THE END=

男女之间不能有纯友谊？

2009-07-01T09:32:00.000-07:00

jus wanna ask... why guy n gal cant oni be fren? a pure frenship..
whenever guys n gals get closer, sure is bcos of LOVE btween couple, bt nt love btween frens... why huh???
its so complicated.... bt i wanna tell someone!!! dun ever do sth dat hurt ur frens! u noe it! nt to say control u or threaten u, jus hope nth ll goes wrong btween frens.... ok?!... reli sux

27/06/2009

2009-06-27T10:32:00.000-07:00

completed one week wit him.. phew~ wat a tough week?? Quarrel on d fifth day.. Zzz
duno how to describe the feeling.. we went back to MIDVALLEY AGAIN for our movie "Transformer 2". Tis movie quite nice actually, bt v sat in d 3rd row, of cos.... DIZZY @@ n, sometimes, reli wan to fall asleep, cos its too close to watch.. bt wat to do, he lik it, i hav to accompany my "GIRLFRIEND".. lolx =P
looking at him~ hmm~ how come i'll bump into him?? i duno how he attracts me n how i attract him.. ??? weirdo~ bt d fact is... v r together rite now...
he brought me to meet up his fren, den, i realised sth, he reli vry vry FUNNY =.= he can laugh whole day duno for wat.. hmm, tis "galfren" reli...... "CUTE" omg omg!!
dun wanna be man le... T.T
ok, now wanna make my blog SPECIAL...
wanna tell someone!!!!
LESLIE, YOU ARE A COLOR WOLF!!!!!!!
lolx.. love ya dear... ^.^

闲掉

2009-06-06T08:28:00.000-07:00

刚刚从云顶回来……超多人，超塞车！！特地上到去逛街？？有人相信吗？？哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

待在家真的很无聊，可是好好的上了云顶走一趟，竟然让我碰见他！！死变态佬！！倒霉倒霉！马上掉头走！心理不爽！
回到来又开不到我经营的餐馆！气死！！！

然后，那个谁谁谁又去看我的部落格，真是有够鸡婆！！！人家有很多秘密的嘛！！！！死衰龙！回你的星球去吧！不要在地球和我这个地球居民争氧气！！太过分啦！！！！！

本人今天的心情真的是有够差的！！！！！！！！！！因为到现在还没吃晚餐！！！！！！！

不舍2

2009-05-26T10:04:00.000-07:00

最近都会勤劳写部落格……因为在等restaurant city level up。哈哈哈哈哈……
真的有很久都没有更新我的部落格啦!让各位久等啦！^^

今天一大清早就飞车去上课，因为迟到了!哈哈……不习惯要自己驾车去，没有人接送了!
一早就上了课“钓鱼”课，超闷的! 所以，一直在烦紫薇，说我要换course! 可是当然，虽然很想，但是是绝对不会换的！

无聊无聊！终于挨过了漫长的两小时，"旧"战友们一起约定了去看戏！整天最有精神最兴奋的时候就是和他们一起……虽然有点不舒服，可是还是会在笑声中遗忘我的不适……^^
看了“push” 这套戏……故事是不错，可是，拍得很乱，戏中的人都乱叫，打来打去，看得我好晕，又想吐，因为午餐吃了超难吃的粥！！@@

到了回家的时候，各走各的，说掰掰时，真的很不舍得，不知道什么时候再会再见……虽然还在同一间学校，可是相信很少会见面……不舍!! 当然，我承认，我也不会常msg他们啦！哈哈哈……

那种莫名的感觉，还一直围绕着我……闲掉 =.= "
还有一个朋友留级了，看见她，明显的不开心，可是就尽量不要提起她的伤心事，其实我也难过。
我们五个（五朵小花），各分东西……好闲啊！一点热闹的气氛都没有……

讨厌这种感觉，想你们！

2009-05-25T09:43:00.000-07:00

很不习惯，看见了很多陌生的脸孔……
没有了熟悉朋友的背影，感觉很不自在……有种说不出的寂寞。
上课没有了吵杂声，没有了朋友们的笑声，感觉变了……
感觉像回到了两年前的第一天……
舍不得啊！！！！

到学校看见的人，没有了熟人，只有冷冷的陌生面孔……
上课遇到难题，没有了解答的人，只有满脑子的问号……
放学吃午餐，没有了人挤人的车，只剩下安静的空位……
回到了家，没有了开心的校园生活回忆，只有千百万个不舍……
睡觉前，没有了万分喜悦的期待明日的课，只有一万个不想……

想念你们啊朋友！！
虽然平时感觉不到你们真是的存在，可是，原来你们是我心中的一个必须……

What A Day???

2009-01-04T09:56:00.000-08:00

no chinese... so write in english..
today, whole day oso weird weird.. my mood weird, weather weird, ppl around oso weird..

at night no ppl are free for me.. i have to be alone again.. d feeling is not reli good..

after persuaded by someone, decide to date back my 'old fren' and meet up to hav dinner..
b4 sending msg of request, my heart beats were fast, extremely fast.. v have never met since.. vry vry long time ago, and d last time v met up, v've never talk to each other, jus lik enemy.. dats y i was worrying.. dun dare to send out d msg.. think think think and think for vry long.. at last, i jus send it out for trying purposes, and heart was hoping dat she would say dat she's not free tonight.. but she'd replied, n saying dat she can accompany me for dinner.. and now, i was thinking dat whether should i go?? fainted.. i totally duno wat i wan.. my heart was afraid to see her actually, since v've never talk to each other for so long.. duno how to face the feeling..

and the night finally arises, i'm nervous.. wanted to tell her i dun wanna go edi, but she told me she's ready.. hmm, have to go out anyway..
while driving, i kept thinking, but my mind was blank, weird huh.. d road to her hse, road dat i've long time missed.. strange.. as if i duno dat place.. reached her hse, she got up.. i... speechless, but however spoken sth.. dat was 'HELLO'.. FAINTED!!! never noe i'll be so shy in front of her.. n i cant imagine dat i said hello to her...!!! in d car, lik nth to say, my mind thinks again.. n she told me another fren oso wanna join, and i agreed??

whole night vry sien there.. both of them talking happily n suddenly i felt left out.. although they are sharing hot news of theirs, but i jus.. cant get into it.. whole nite, silence cover me.. they talk and i think..
although they were there, but i felt lonely.. mayb, i changed.. mayb old man's life style suits me more.. or mayb, my life grows w/out color? hahahahahaha.. felt dat their life is getting far far far away from me n i could never go into it.. feeling i'm a weirdo wit them.. whole nite heart beaten up fast.. til i cant breath either.. i shouldnt think dat way i guess, and v were reli good fren at d past, regretted never join her life.. and now being someone else outside her life..

not happy.........

无

2008-10-26T12:34:00.000-07:00

出成绩那天，他找了我……
当他和我说，他和她分手了，其实我真的没有什么感觉……但没有人相信……
毕竟在这段时间，让我知道，其实，我们两个根本不适合……哈哈哈哈哈~
说得好像我和他有过什么感情，其实我们什么都不是……

他以前选择了她，那也表示，他是个说一套做一套的人，我根本不希罕！！
我需要的人，不只是要对我好，而是不要假情假意！！
不知过了多少个月，我脑海里终于没有这个人的存在，但他却找回我，提醒我还有那么一个他，可是，我心里，再也没有谁…… ^^

痘痘日记（完结篇）

2008-09-11T02:23:00.002-07:00

终于……完结篇啦！！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 ^^

昨晚，为了financial accounting，拼了老娘的命，读到凌晨五点半，妈都起身了……我还在读…… 不知是不是太拼搏了，痘痘的块块全掉了！！哈哈哈哈哈哈。。看着他不减掉，心里是爽的咧！！！可是考试压力还在……

今天考试咯……我最喜欢的科目，可是，我竟然不会！！晕掉~
可是也提起我剩下的勇气，往前冲啊！！！！
一直写一直做……就这样过了两个小时……
其中，有一题我完全不会，只读了formula，就写了一些废话……心想，那25分就算了吧！！拿不到A也算了吧！就猛攻后面的问题……后面应该都没有问题，可是，我连检查的时间也没有，错了一点就够力啦！！

考完了，问问朋友，我竟然！！！！对了！！！！闲掉~
爽！太爽啦！！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~
但现在还开心得太早，要等到成绩出后才能肯定！！

痘痘日记（七）

2008-09-03T09:57:00.000-07:00

由于老妹的那么多可是，那……就不用和我正日庆祝啦！！嘻嘻嘻嘻嘻嘻~！！！
可是要补回！！！！不管不管~ >.<
哈哈，其实我也没有指定你们要帮我庆祝啦，说说而已……哈哈哈哈。不用也可以的……19岁啊！！不能大事庆祝，（不知谁说的）……那考完试再叫你们出来，喝喝小茶吧！呵呵呵呵呵~

今天带妹去KLCC！！！这是我那么多天后第一天重见天日啊！！！阳光好美~哈哈。可是坐在妹的车，好像有点危险，*可能是太久没有坐车吧？* 今天一早，（一点多）就起身了，去冲凉！！今天终于可以冲凉，心情格外不同！！吃了面包，等妹！！（又说吃早餐，怎知被她放飞机）过后就去KLCC吃咯……在那儿走了一下，发现那里很不适合我们，没得逛……就准备回家咯！（5.30pm)

出到去，塞车！哇噻！！！警察又封路，兜了很久，终于在6.30pm看到了熟悉的路回家，但又因为没人相信妹的话，又走错路，去到JALAN DUTA，就说要去midvalley，然后1u……经过了很多转角路口，不知要不要去1u好……？？过后因为 jln kuching 很塞车，然后今天星期三，1u parking 不用钱，所以我们终于在第三个转角，受不住诱惑，转去了 PJ。又塞车！！！闲掉了！！半路……我突然想到，好像已经过了sales噢？还有免费吗？……………………噢~！噢~！噢~！！！！！被骗！！笨得没有人有的我们，傻傻地困在车龙里……咋到了！！

去了1u，看到过了sales空空的百货公司，没什么心情走，就找个地方吃晚餐好了。吃完后，再去走走……不知不觉，就九点了？？？！！！！时间过得太快了吧？又得回家了！！

闲了咯~ 虽然痘痘还没好，可是今天很开心咧！！可以出去见见世面！哈哈哈哈哈~~~

痘痘日记（六）

2008-09-02T10:35:00.000-07:00

还有痘痘的续集……
写到都有一点闲了……为什么那么久还不会好？晚上dear带我去 psr mlm，一路上，我只是想办法把我的脸遮起来，我觉得自己好丑，很怪……很想快点回家，这也是为什么我不让朋友探望我的原因，不想美美的形象就这样破灭！！嘻嘻嘻嘻嘻……很笨！
今天心也好过一点，总算有好好的读书……还有几天就考试咯，也还有几天就生日……唉~~~
考试=生日；生日=考试…… 闲掉了咯！！！没有人帮我庆祝咧，朋友们都忙着考试。幸好！！我还有一个笨蛋帮我庆祝！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈……他叫—“它服”很没有型的一个名字！无聊！
死够笨老妹，你是死够笨啊，所以就别再 DENY 了……哈哈 ^^ 你老姐我啊，有个死够笨老妹，也很开心的……哈哈哈哈 ^^
很无聊，很无聊，非常无聊！！！

痘痘日记（五）

2008-09-01T12:58:00.000-07:00

痘痘还是没有消失……今早起床，还是没有奇迹。脸上的痘痘还在……没有完结篇写咯！
如果生日之前（考试那天）痘痘还在，我怎样去考试？
已经一个礼拜待在家没有出去，外面的世界变得怎样了？七天没见到太阳了……可使并没有想念被它照射的日子—热！！
生日要到了，很期待！提早许个愿∶“希望我身体健康，不要再生病！我身边的人也一样！”
经过这大病，才意识到健康真的很重要，身体出现毛病，怎样哭，那痛怎样都不会减少……
预防生于治疗，以后就要更注意饮食啦！！！
呼~出了痘痘，以后就不必担心它何时会攻击我咯……我啊……真的想什么中什么！前阵子才想我几时会出水痘，这下就中个正着……哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！真衰……

痘痘日记（四）

2008-08-31T09:07:00.000-07:00

好笑一下……谢谢大家又再游览我的部落格……sis，你还想我再生水痘噢？不给已经是完结篇了吗？哼……
好！痘痘日记（四）开始………………
现在我痘痘的状况就是，变红红了，而那些没生出来的痘，都退掉了，只剩下几粒小痘，正在排除万难，康复着……好了还要戒口，不能吃很多东西，辛苦一下……脸上还有两颗大痘，不然，一早就溜出去咯！！
晚上，sis尽然打电话给我！！一小时又一分钟又二十九秒！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈^^谈了很多人家的坏话，谈得我耳朵都出油—正所谓“听出耳油”啊！哈哈哈哈哈
愿我自己早日康复咯！！

痘痘日记（三）

2008-08-29T10:33:00.000-07:00

谢啦orange……谢谢各位…… 对小女的关心 ^.^
有好消息……我今天尽然睡了个12小时的安眠……发了两个梦，一个恶梦，一个美梦……（美梦也不算美，旅行尽然被导游抛弃！！）
那么多天辛苦了，今天总算补回来了……痘痘都不痒了，只是痛……满脸都是，看到都不爽……算着算着，都好几天没有洗脸啦！！昨天偷偷冲了凉，爽极了！！哎……现在整身脏兮兮，为何有些人可以几十天不冲凉？？！受不了肮脏的我啦！！很想快快去冲凉！想吃顿好的！！出街逛逛！！
病了那么多天，才廋了2kg……可知我病了还是很会吃啦 (-.-")
因为抵制不了肮脏的攻势，所以这几天都没心情读书，看了一下就去做别的事……不喜欢这样，可是就是没有心读啊！！怎么办怎么办？？？？？？？？？？？

痘痘日记（二）

2008-08-28T00:35:00.000-07:00

总算有个十五分钟的安乐休息……虽然只有十五分钟，但已经很足够！！
起身了，没事做，一直走来走去，全身的痘痘痒得要命，又不能捉！！气死我气死我！！
几时才能好咧？？脚也开始长了痘痘出来，整身都是，好像戏里那些中了瘟疫的人……很恐怖咧，原来身体真的会长出那么奇怪的东西！
想着想着，哭了出来……真的很辛苦！！没有一天睡得安宁，没有一天能专心读书
越哭越失控……闲了！！痘痘们听话，快点出来，快点走！

痘痘日记

2008-08-26T22:52:00.000-07:00

出水痘啦！！呵呵……要考试才来病！！还有一个星期的时间来痊愈，来得及吗？？
而且幸好第一科是英文，不用读！哈哈……law lecturer说一向来law都是第一科考的，幸好幸好……原来延迟这个paper是为了我啊？？呵呵……

上天总待我不薄……痘痘快快出来啦！！很想痛痛快快的冲个凉，吃一顿大餐！！！生日又没得开开心心的过……唯有考完试后补回啦……

看见那可爱的水痘，真想把它搓开，看看它里面是什么……为什么叫水痘？我现在明白啦……因为它长得真的很像一滴水……

谢谢一班关心我的朋友，谢谢dear，谢谢你一直照顾我……谢谢那些不关心我的朋友，有了你们，我才真正知道谁是我的真心朋友！！！

不好

2008-08-22T11:24:00.000-07:00

最近，
不如意的事一堆……
烦恼一堆……
功课一堆……
不想发生的事，又偏偏发生了！

心情时好时坏，就连我自己也不知道自己想怎样！！
想到一些事，脾气就马上来了，想控制也控制不了……

考试要来啦，我也在为自己拼博着……
一直努力努力想把所有的东西都记在脑里！为什么我的脑才有128mb??我需要1g 啊！！
LAW考试又怎样？！心烦……

笑话

2008-07-26T22:41:00.000-07:00

首先，写着部落格时，想讲明，我没有特别针对和维护谁，只是个人想法……
不想因此得罪谁！！

有些事情，是不是眼不见为净咧？
唉……我不是想维护谁，只是觉得他有点无辜……
有没有想过他的感受呢？
什么事都怪他……
如果不想去，说了就可以咯，我们也不会逼你，朋友之间，用得着在背后说人家吗？
失望！！为什么非要搞得大家的感情破裂？
闲掉！！！！
朋友不是你的谁，不用看你的脸色做人…… 她可以不开心走掉，不理你，可是他没有！！！
你们有什么事需要他帮忙，他有说过不吗？？？？得到的报答，就是背后的闲言闲语……
如果我们再逼你去，以后去哪里就不用叫你去？！这是什么话？？？说这些话之前，有想过后果吗？？？
换成是你被人这样说，会开心吗？？

忙

2008-07-23T08:07:00.000-07:00

忙碌的生活让人透不过气……
忙了半个月……
忙到病倒了……
忙到身边的朋友也不管了……
很忙啊！！
现在忙了，才想到以前悠闲的生活，是多么的好……
我这样的生活，至少还得维续个两个月咧！
闲掉啦！！！
大考快来！假期快来！

人啊！！

2008-07-10T07:36:00.000-07:00

人啊……总是需要照顾一下自己的仪表嘛！！

当你看见一个人，
当你听见他的声音，
当你感觉到他，
你会想吐的时候……
那个人是不是是时候检讨了呢？

一生当中，我总算遇到了我生平第一个这样的人！！
可恨！！以为他说的话很好笑么？
可恨！！以为它成为全班焦点很厉害么？
可恨！！以为他每天穿的曝露就可吸引别人的目光么？
想吐！！！！！！！

十四个为什么？

2008-07-09T10:37:00.000-07:00

中学的生活是怎样过的？

为什么中学都那么轻松？
为什么中学好像都没有考试？
为什么中学好像都没有project？
为什么中学好像都过得很开心？
为什么中学的读书时间都很短？
为什么中学的朋友都很好？
为什么中学都没有问题？

为什么学院生活那么烦？
为什么学院又做不完的功课？
为什么学院又考不完的试？
为什么学院的生活都不开心？
为什么学院的读书时间都很长？
为什么学院很的人际关系都很复杂？
为什么学院都问题重重？

明白了！！

2008-07-08T10:44:00.000-07:00

两个人，不能在一起，可能是时间的问题……
两个人，在一起，也可能是时间的问题……
两个人，分开了，又在一起，可能是时间的问题……
两个人，不曾开始过，可能是时间的问题……

时间，真的可以改变缘分……
时间，真的可以改变一个人……
时间，真的能让一个人变得坚强……
时间，真的可以让不可能变成可能；可能变成不可能……

*当时间一到，时候一成熟……你想知道的事，都可以一一解答……
不必在现在苦苦烦恼，苦苦思想……
这只是浪费着你宝贵的时间，宝贵的青春……
何不将这些用来伤心难过的时间，好好活出开心自在的你？

哦……我终于开窍——明白了！！！

不知道

2008-07-05T01:09:00.000-07:00

不知道何时开始，见到他，就仿佛看见了希望和寄托……
不知道何时开始，我见到他的车，就有见到他的感觉……
不知道何时开始，我见到他，就会有一种陌生的感觉，很陌生很陌生……
不知道何时开始，我已不再是这车上的乘客……
不知道何时开始，我怕见到这辆车子的主人……
不知道何时开始，我们的缘分就画上了句号——结束了……

不知道为什么，我们又在偶遇的情况下开始了……
不知道为什么，大家都还挂念着对方……
不知道为什么，大家都不想放下手中的生活……
不知道为什么，我们又走到了尽头……
不知道为什么，到现在我还是会傻傻的看着他的车，想起我们的从前……
不知道为什么，听见“林峰----爱在记忆中找你” 会想起我和你……

不想知道

2008-06-27T10:39:00.000-07:00

不知道何时才能停止一切的胡闹？！
我已经没有力气在继续下去！！
为什么要让我在这个时候知道真相？！
当我想敢敢的去做一件事，总会有状况！！
够烦了！！我不想每天没得睡！！不想每天失眠！！
不想啊！！！！！！

累！！

2008-06-25T08:00:00.000-07:00

再好的人……也会有变坏的一天……

再好的朋友……也会有出卖你的一天……

再美的花……也会有凋谢的一天……

再美好的回忆……也会有忘记的一天……

*我只想每天做好自己，做好本分！！什么也不想多想！！
只想抓着每一秒…… 现在的我开心就是了！
随着心走吧！*

累！！累！！！累！！！！

爸爸！！

2008-06-03T10:43:00.000-07:00

我有个叫”聪明“的爸爸！！

我已经精疲力尽！很想很想睡觉！功课有还没有干完，突然接到已通电话！爸call回家……

“快点叫妈咪来XXX，拿汽油来，因为我的车没油了！开不了车！

“哦……”

15分钟后
去油站打了油，装着满满的油，去找他……

爸开始元天怨地……

过后还是不能启动！！

30分钟后
还是不能，就要借电了！

拿了电线，不会用，就到附近的mamak叫人个帮忙。

找来的尽然是我最怕最讨厌的黑皮人~！！！

他们还算热心的帮忙……可是帮了………………

45分钟后
还是一样……

然后想睡觉的我，很想回家！！

他们反而开始聊了起来……

我突然灵机一动！

想起了可能是”这个“问题！

就去看了看gear……

果然！！它在 D 的位子！！！

怪不得开不到车！！！

哇！！！！！靠！！！！！！！！

1小时30分钟后
终于成功开启引擎！！！

回家睡觉去咯！！！

现在
功课不想做——太累！！
觉不想睡——太想写部落格！！
一切——只因为我有个“聪明”的爸爸！！

没人缘

2008-06-02T03:50:00.000-07:00

我班的人越来越少，越来越冷清！！

我变成了孤军作战！！

难道我真的那么难相处吗？？为什么都没有什么朋友？哈哈

不想读书，只想找工作……学校的生活实在太难过了！我不知道可以挨到何时？？